I can feel it creeping ... Ever so close it moves toward me daily. The darkness, my heart grows heavy, the sun doesn't seem so bright. The night, predictable, inevitable that's when it grasp me... Gently. Comforting it covers me like a warm heavy blanket, familiar. I know this darkness, I relate to the empty whirlwind of thought. I know you. My mind knows what to think as my body feels the weight of the darkness. The sadness, only a part, the tears mere symptoms of it's presence. Yet I welcome the darkness, I know you and I will slay no Dragons today.
If I run the journey will be fruitless, the darkness will always win. To hard to fight against a constanent, I've always known you. Sometimes, like now, I don't want to fight but embrace the darkness , it's familiar , I understand it. So easy to embrace the darkness , like slipping into a warm bath ... Inviting and soothing.. It's where I belong ... In the darkness. No one sees you In the darkness, actions, words, sadness it all hidden behind the shadows the darkness works to cast. Shhhh, someone may hear us as we plot the tie that binds , the darkness has come calling and I will slay no Dragons today.

[rainbow8]

That's powerful. Are you okay?

[skysblue]

But you must fight the darkness. It's your mandate. It's your responsibility. It's your obligation.

Yes, darkness is enticing. But it is not what it seems. It's a trick. It confuses and deceives. Although seemingly a place of comfort, pain awaits you there. You must fight. As they say, 'gird up your loins and face the Dragon'.

[Sanguinaire]

nice....

[alwaysrejoice]

very creative and insightful.

Originally Posted by rainbow8

That's powerful. Are you okay?

I went off my meds ... Thought T would be enough ... But its not. The depression seems so much easier to deal with then the solution...I know the darkness, it's just easier.

[skysblue]

Originally Posted by LolaCabanna

I went off my meds ... Thought T would be enough ... But its not. The depression seems so much easier to deal with then the solution...I know the darkness, it's just easier.

Did you go off meds under the supervision of your pdoc? Maybe you should contact him and find out how to get back on. Be careful - you know how dangerous depression can be.

Originally Posted by skysblue

But you must fight the darkness. It's your mandate. It's your responsibility. It's your obligation.

Yes, darkness is enticing. But it is not what it seems. It's a trick. It confuses and deceives. Although seemingly a place of comfort, pain awaits you there. You must fight. As they say, 'gird up your loins and face the Dragon'.

Pain is there no matter what, I just dont want to fight today and the darkness is alluring. The pain I feel is constant and the road to recovery , well there is no map... But with the darkness I know the way and the pain is predictable, comfortable, familiar. I see T on Friday and I can't wait.

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by LolaCabanna

I can feel it creeping ... Ever so close it moves toward me daily. The darkness, my heart grows heavy, the sun doesn't seem so bright. The night, predictable, inevitable that's when it grasp me... Gently. Comforting it covers me like a warm heavy blanket, familiar. I know this darkness, I relate to the empty whirlwind of thought. I know you. My mind knows what to think as my body feels the weight of the darkness. The sadness, only a part, the tears mere symptoms of it's presence. Yet I welcome the darkness, I know you and I will slay no Dragons today.
If I run the journey will be fruitless, the darkness will always win. To hard to fight against a constanent, I've always known you. Sometimes, like now, I don't want to fight but embrace the darkness , it's familiar , I understand it. So easy to embrace the darkness , like slipping into a warm bath ... Inviting and soothing.. It's where I belong ... In the darkness. No one sees you In the darkness, actions, words, sadness it all hidden behind the shadows the darkness works to cast. Shhhh, someone may hear us as we plot the tie that binds , the darkness has come calling and I will slay no Dragons today.

Lovely poem!