[googley]

I had a hard T session, but really wasn't connected emotionally to what was going on. And now that I'm home it hit me like a ton of bricks. I'm feeling a little better now. But it is really hard. I feel so alone. I just want to hole up in a ball and never come out. I feel so awful. Why does this have to be so hard?

[mixedup_emotions]

((( googley )))

Wow, I can very much relate to that! And I'm right there with ya, WHY OH WHY does it have to be SO hard.....

It's a journey that I hope is well worth it in the end.....

[beautiful.mess]

This happens to me regularly too. In fact, it was one of the topics that I talked to T about last week. Hang in there.

[likewater]

Googley, i dont know why it's so hard. Maybe you should tell T how hard it us and see if there is anything you can do to make it easier
like use some techniques or go slower. That's what mine does. I hope ypu feel better soon and sending you hugs and i hope you have hot chocolate.

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions

((( googley )))

Wow, I can very much relate to that! And I'm right there with ya, WHY OH WHY does it have to be SO hard.....

It's a journey that I hope is well worth it in the end.....

Therapy is like cleaning up after an oil spill. There is so much oil and it gets everywhere. And it's horrible. And you never seem to be making any progress.

And you stand there, covered from head to toe in the vile goop, with your tiny scrubbing brush in your tired hand and you think, "Why the hell am I doing this?!"

But every drop of oil you take away makes the beach cleaner, and yes, it is worth it in the end. The birds do come back.

I've still got some way to go, but there are birds on my beach.

(((((((((googley)))))))))

I hate the things that we're stuck with after those hard sessions.

I'm sorry you feel alone I hope reaching out here takes away a little of the alone-ness

[FourRedheads]

I hear you, googley. I think it's worth it in the end. But the journey is hard.

[karebear1]

I can totally relate to you googley- you're not alone in that feeling at all. (((((googley)))))

Hope your feeling better today googley, and not so alone. Maybe you can talk to your T about having an easier session mixed in there, and work on what you do in the aftermath of the hard, horrible sessions. I had a couple of sessions in a row where we worked on horrible stuff and I told my T things I have never told ANYONE EVER. EVER. This week, we kind of took it easy and talked about my weekend and how hard it was and how to cope better and worked on my negative self talk. It was really helpful. Maybe you could talk to your T about doing something similar?

[Sannah]

[Nelliecat]

(((((googley))))))

I don't have any words of wisdom, just here to give you hugs

[googley]

Thank you everyone for your hugs and support. I am feeling a little better today. The intensity of the bad feelings has decreased, so they are easier to deal with. I hope that they continue to decrease. I plan on talking to my T about this next session. At this point I just want the feelings to go away.
Thanks for all the hugs.