[mommyof2girls]

Well I had my appointment with my pdoc today...It went well, but she came to the conclusion, that I need to write a letter to my ex t ( about all the things i want and wanted to say to him) and bring it to my next appointment....At that time, I will need to read it aloud to her and then burn it afterwards.....I am very hesitant and scared to write this letter....I guess because this means putting an end to my obsessing over him....And living in this fantasy life that one day he would be mine....Am I really ready to do this??? And am I ready to put my deepest feelings for him in letter form and read it aloud to her??? What will she think of me??? I am so nervous about this whole process.....UGH!!!!

[mixedup_emotions]

I can imagine how extremely difficult this task is.....and only you can determine if you're ready/willing to do that.

I am working on opening up about shame and humiliation...and I read something tonight about writing letters to my abusers...and I felt an overwhelming surge of fear and anxiety.

I remember one time, I made an attempt at that....and my T could sense that I didn't put all my feelings into it....I didn't FEEL it...I just stated it....and there is a huge different. I'm scared to allow myself to FEEL it....let alone share it...

So....I can understand what you might be going through....and it's SO hard...