[bluemountains]

I am not doing well at all, and at 1 am last night when I again couldn't sleep even on the meds, doc meds not self meds, I sent T an email requesting an extra session, and now I am waiting for a return email, knowing that she probably won't check her email until after first sessions because she is always running late for the first sessions. I should have called, like she said, but I couldn't do that at 1 am. Now I will have to wait, and if she can't see me today and I have to wait until Friday, I don't think I'll be able to function when I go back to work tomorrow.
Wow guys, I haven't been here in my mind for a while and it is really hurting. I swore I would never get so dependent on a t, but right now I have nowhere else to turn.
Bluemountains

[Nelliecat]

((((bluemountains))))

I hope your T calls soon and you can get that extra session.

Hugs to you

Please call her, if you can!

[bluemountains]

I feel so low, and I can't call because I feel so low! I absolutely hate the phone, so I can't make myself do it. Realistically what can she do/say anyway-use breathing techniques, do I feel like I will harm myself? Should I seek emergency attention? I know the standards. Right now, none of that stuff will work.
I'm sorry everyone. I am going to try to stop burdening you, the pc folks who get it, with my problems.
Blue mountains

You're not burdening, bluemountains. If anything, I'm using you.
If I'm thinking about you, I'm not thinking how disgusting I am. So, see, you're actually being helpful.

[Nelliecat]

(((((bluemountains)))))

You're not a burden to us

Nelliecat

bluemountains I feel for you , I had a freaking meltdown over the weekend awaiting a response from T and about drove myself crazy thinking about it. So sit and T will respond, I hope you get an appointment...in the mean time try to concentrate on something else....get out of your head and stay busy that works for me

[bluemountains]

Originally Posted by My kids are cool

You're not burdening, bluemountains. If anything, I'm using you.
If I'm thinking about you, I'm not thinking how disgusting I am. So, see, you're actually being helpful.

Thanks for this My kids are cool! I think this was my first smile today, and I don't mean to take it at your expense. Only on PC can we understand this as a compliment

T called me, and I am set for an appt. on Friday morning. She said she could make other time if necessary before Friday, but I didn't want her to take time from her day off tomorrow. I think I can hold out with lots of journaling and crying, and maybe more posts.

to all of you!

Bluemountains

[mcl6136]

I am glad you posted. I am having a pretty big melt myself.

We DO get it!!!

Journaling and crying and more posts all sound like great coping!