Worrying your T?

i have scared mine...i have scared myself...she has told me she was scared for me because she had never seen me so sad & hopeless & just so without fight...she said i always fight back & there was none...& she was worried.

she called when my area got mandatory evacuated becuase she flet i would stay in my house & take what happened...i had those thoughts...but at the last minute thought otherwise...(ok my house isn't in the area to flood that deep)...

but yeah i have scared her...not proud of that

My T had a concerned look on his face, so I just flat out asked him if he's scared? He said not scared, but VERY concerned. Other than that he didn't eloborate on how he felt.
This was thru one of my bi weekly deep deep very close to Sui depressions. I think now he knows I hang in there by a thread and show up so it's ok? Idk!

As far as end of session, he doesn't do anything. Just walks me to door and say I'll see u in a couple days. Wish he'd show more concern or like I read above a follow up phone call or email

My T once told me that for the first six months he was seeing he, he felt like he didn't have anything to offer me (this was years later in our therapy that he told me this). Scared me a little.
As for EMS, he once called the cops on me when I threatened suicide, said I would go to the hospital, then changed my mind. They came to his office and escorted me to the ambulance. Really freaked me out! Realized later that he cared enough to call my bluff but it really scared me at the time.