[SoupDragon]

I have spent so long with T, just trying to get my anxiety under control and the last few sessions have been better. Today I felt really positive and shared it with T and so maybe that was the red flag for T to push a little. We were doing some work using fantasy and suddenly all this past stuff seemed to fit in everything I was thinking. It was not that I had planned to talk about any of it, but amongst the imagery T and I were talking about, it was like all this other stuff was pushing to get attention. I was then left with all these pictures going around in my head and feeling like I had walked into a brick wall - really stunned.

I just wondered if this is how it happens with others, like suddenly the dam wall breaks and there is not stopping it.

Soup

[CantExplain]

That sort of thing doesn't happen to me until after the session is over.

Also, the pain comes first and the knowledge only later.

(In fact, knowing what the tears are really about is usually enough to stop them.)

[Callmebj]

Soup I hope this revelation, at least that's what I gathered from your post; will be a healing time for you.
Hugs, bj

[dazeofdolphins]

Originally Posted by SoupDragon

I have spent so long with T, just trying to get my anxiety under control and the last few sessions have been better. Today I felt really positive and shared it with T and so maybe that was the red flag for T to push a little. We were doing some work using fantasy and suddenly all this past stuff seemed to fit in everything I was thinking. It was not that I had planned to talk about any of it, but amongst the imagery T and I were talking about, it was like all this other stuff was pushing to get attention. I was then left with all these pictures going around in my head and feeling like I had walked into a brick wall - really stunned.

I just wondered if this is how it happens with others, like suddenly the dam wall breaks and there is not stopping it.

Soup

It can happen in so many different and surprising ways. There is really no formula unless your therapist is using a particular type of therapy and even then there are unpredictable moments. The best practice is to be mindful of whatever is happening and try to welcome the information as a clue in a puzzle. It is often not an easy process but it can be wonderfully transforming as you work to connect the dots.

Good luck-
dazeofdolphins

[Chopin99]

I can't answer your question because I haven't really gotten that far with T yet, but it sounds like you had a breakthrough to me!

Soup, as the stunned feeling wears off, a lot of other feelings are going to be boiling up. Please know that we are here for you, and be sure to reach out to your T in between sessions if he or she allows that.

[SoupDragon]

Originally Posted by My kids are cool

Soup, as the stunned feeling wears off, a lot of other feelings are going to be boiling up. Please know that we are here for you, and be sure to reach out to your T in between sessions if he or she allows that.

Thank-you My Kids Are Cool - I think I had underestimated how vulnerable I am behind all the bravery and yes I can feel sadness setting in. Thank-you for reminding me to reach out if things do get tough. Soup

[mcl6136]

I also found there were feelings behind the feelings behind the feelings.

The vulnerability was pretty huge, actually.

I found it came in waves. And the waves came more intensely around evening. I found that if I charted it (okay, this is a little dweeby), it helped me, so I went onto moodscope.com and saw there were some patterns to it all, which I found some small comfort in.

Mostly, though, it took time. And telling myself that this was why I had embarked on the therapy journey to begin with. Now, however, I am in search of a Therapist with a very different outlook than the last two that I have tried.

Enough about me. SD, I think you are really breaking through. Your posts sound so much more open, investigative. This stuff is hard...and I'm so glad you have taken some risks!

Hang in there! Hugs to you!

[SoupDragon]

Originally Posted by mcl6136

I also found there were feelings behind the feelings behind the feelings.

The vulnerability was pretty huge, actually.

I found it came in waves. And the waves came more intensely around evening. I found that if I charted it (okay, this is a little dweeby), it helped me, so I went onto moodscope.com and saw there were some patterns to it all, which I found some small comfort in.

Mostly, though, it took time. And telling myself that this was why I had embarked on the therapy journey to begin with. Now, however, I am in search of a Therapist with a very different outlook than the last two that I have tried.

Enough about me. SD, I think you are really breaking through. Your posts sound so much more open, investigative. This stuff is hard...and I'm so glad you have taken some risks!

Hang in there! Hugs to you!

Thanks mcl6136 - maybe the last 2 years with T have been about getting ready and maybe now I am ready to sail those treacherous waters. I shall have a look at moodscope too - Thanks SD