[WantingtoHeal]

Just writing to get some things out. I just saw my T yesterday, but i miss her today. I don't even know what I'd say. I just want to see her and be with her. I don't even know why I like it so much. I've got to tell her this - I've got that planned for next session. So scared she'll back off on sessions due to it. I asked her about contact between sessions and it sounds like she's pretty much off limits. She wasn't really direct about it, though. It's hard for me to be with anyone else because I'm just wanting to be with her. I know logically I have to stop thinking like this. I'm already sad about the potential of ending therapy with her and I just started - but there will be an end. I wish I could talk to her right now and hear her voice. The wait between sessions seems forever. I live for that hour. I know this is something in my deep psyche because I don't know her, but I am sooo connecting with her and find her very attractive. She has a FB page and I look at her picture every day. Hope there is no way to tell that. Anyway, I just needed to write as an outlet to cope with it instead of doing something inappropriate or harmful.

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by WantingtoHeal

Just writing to get some things out. I just saw my T yesterday, but i miss her today. I don't even know what I'd say. I just want to see her and be with her. I don't even know why I like it so much.

[rainbow8]

I can relate!! Did you read the thread with the article on erotic transference? The feelings are so hard to live with sometimes!! I'm glad you will be discussing it with your T. I wish there were a solution but it seems like the only one, other than distracting yourself, which doesn't always work though I use it a lot, is to really explore your feelings for your T with her, and where they come from in your past.

[WantingtoHeal]

THanks so much CantExplain and rainbow I like the picture hugs.

I did read the article on erotic transference. It was amazing. I definitely will have to explore the feelings with T. I hate living with the feelings, that's for sure. It's like I'm a love sick puppy - can't sleep, can't eat, can't think, etc.

Thank you for replying. Helps a lot.

[faith1983]

It will get better... I was once like that, and I hated it; to feel like there's nothing else interesting on earth than t and t hour is really hard. I even one told myself I would stop because I couldn't stand feel like that every week, I was way too sad in-between session. It can simply means you need your t right now but as the time goes, you'll get better, I'm sure!

take care
faith

[FourRedheads]

I was like that before, WantingToHeal. Once you explore it, it will eventually start to get a little better. Any good T wont terminate because of it..they will help you work through it.