[Silent_tsol]

Last week I had to cancel my session because I have an awful stinkin cold. Well now I'm having trouble even considering talking to her. I have so much going on and I'm so overwhelmed and I feel like I'm stranded alone on an island. I just want to hide in a closet. I think I've posted that before, I guess it never went away. I don't think it's a good thing to have missed a session, I feel like it's given me time to put her on the other side of the castle gates.

I seem to have the same issue. Between sessions I would lose the connection and then if I missed an appointment, it was way worse. For me its, "out of sight out of mind." Hopefully you can go to your next appointment and discuss this feeling. Its easy to NOT go back after a missed appointment.

[FourRedheads]

I understand this. So hard to hang onto that connection between sessions and a cancellation messes it all up even more. I like your description of putting your T "on the other side of the castle gates." That's a good word picture of what is happening.

Do you contact your T outside of sessions? When I am struggling to hold that connection, sometimes I will call. Just a thought.

[Silent_tsol]

I have a session later today. I contact her ish. We email to book appointments and occasionally I will put a small bit of "this is my thoughts" but I don't know. I feel like I don't want the connection. It's safer with her on the other side of the wall - I hate being vulnerable and I certainly don't want to talk about this. I just want to say "hey, I'm thinking about having pizza for dinner and the weather's nice. See ya later"