[larakeziah]

I have an appointment 2moro to assess whether I'm going to get a T and how they can help. According to the leaflet my doc gave me they are going to want to know my current issues, their symptoms and when they started. Also any therapy I've had before, past issues and triggers. I've been depressed for the last few weeks this is why my doc reffered me but today I don't feel depressed I don't feel anything to be honest, I feel kinda numb! I had done some prep work and wrote how I'd been feeling over the past few weeks but now I don't feel like that anymore.

Aside from my depression issues I also have anxiety and panic attacks, I rarely leave the house, I get anxious around ppl and stuff like that. Normally I sleep most of the day cos I don't sleep well at night and cos I've been so depressed all I've wanted to do is sleep. I didn't sleep well at all last night but today I feel wide awake! Its after 2 in the morning and I'm wide awake. I've stopped taking my anti psychotics cos they were brainwashing me and turning me into a robot.

The point of my post is I'm not sure what I'm supposed to tell the T now! Any ideas??

[critterlady]

I'd start with what you described here.

[bipolarmedstudent]

you could also print out some of the posts you have made on this forum in the last few weeks and bring them in. That's a good idea if you don't feel like writing down your thoughts all over again.

[larakeziah]

Really?? What if he decides that I'm not depressed anymore and that I don't need therapy? I'll never be able to go back to work then cos I have so many issues with anxiety and stuff and what if what I'm feeling now changes and I'm depressed again on thursday! I'm so confused!!

[larakeziah]

Originally Posted by bipolarmedstudent

you could also print out some of the posts you have made on this forum in the last few weeks and bring them in. That's a good idea if you don't feel like writing down your thoughts all over again.

The only problem with that is I have no ink in my printer!! Otherwise it would be a good starting point! Thanks anyway

[critterlady]

Originally Posted by larakeziah

Really?? What if he decides that I'm not depressed anymore and that I don't need therapy? I'll never be able to go back to work then cos I have so many issues with anxiety and stuff and what if what I'm feeling now changes and I'm depressed again on thursday! I'm so confused!!

There are other reasons to benefit from therapy besides depression. And depression doesn't go away and then come back within 2 days. Depression doesn't always cause an unrelenting low mood - there are better days and worse days. It's possible that what you're experiencing today is a better day, perhaps even the result of some relief at the possibility of getting some help. Be honest in the assessment and explain your concerns.

[larakeziah]

Originally Posted by critterlady

There are other reasons to benefit from therapy besides depression. And depression doesn't go away and then come back within 2 days. Depression doesn't always cause an unrelenting low mood - there are better days and worse days. It's possible that what you're experiencing today is a better day, perhaps even the result of some relief at the possibility of getting some help. Be honest in the assessment and explain your concerns.

I guess ur right I'll just tell him everything that's gone on in the last few weeks and go from there. Thanks!

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by larakeziah

Really?? What if he decides that I'm not depressed anymore and that I don't need therapy? I'll never be able to go back to work then cos I have so many issues with anxiety and stuff and what if what I'm feeling now changes and I'm depressed again on thursday! I'm so confused!!

People also get therapy for anxiety.

That numb feeling you describe is probably depression. Often depression appears as a lack of feeling or emotion rather than sadness. For me, that numbness has always indicated my depression is worse, not that it is better.

[larakeziah]

well I've had my appointment and I don't think it went too well!! I forgot a lot of the things I was going to say and was really nervous. The voices kept telling me he thought I was wasting his time so this made me a bit reluctant to say stuff and I was getting really anxious. He said someone will ring later on today or tomorow to let me know if I (for want of a better word), 'Qualify' for therapy. i'm nopt holding my breath, or maybe I should then i wouldn't have to live like this!!!