[For real]

Omfg... I truly can not believe I'm still waiting for a private psych bed. I thought I was the insane one...it seems the psych system in public and private are insane. I was already going thru he'll before I asked for help (hospital admission ). I'm broken n shattered. The nightmares between now and then have been unbelievable. Dr's are meant to help not make a bad situation worse. even when my T called me n harassed me oht of het precious holiday time. Omg. I feel so alone, shes my main only support n she got cranky at me. Wot tbe hell.

real 05:55 PM 03-30-2012 Okay...hello I’m nervous as anything writing this......and breath Forreal. I went to T today and after discussion, we agreed a period of hospitalisation may be necessary. I have been struggling with a severe unrelenting depression and suicidal ideation for over a month. It has been horrible trying to drag my body around to get ANYTHING done. Plenty of the basic things have proven elusive e.g. shower, teeth, hair, clothing, forgetting to take meds, going off meds cuz i had no energy to go up street and more, regularly sleeping for about 15hrs straight etc Also my T is going away for easter holidays (probably 3wks). I normally see her 3 x week. Whenever she is on leave/holidays, I do poorly. We think it takes me back to all the rejection of my past when I was young, and every other person who has left me. Hence, I’m a basketcase most times she’s away. So now we have agreed to a hospitalisation, it doesn’t mean it gets easier for me. I have to wait till there is a bed available. This is private psych hospital, but still gotta wait and cuz I need a single room it takes even longer. Last time it took 3weeks. AAAaa..not good. Im nervous and would love some support if possible. I have wanted to write on here for a while, now Ive taken the plunge its still scary...will they think im a total fruitloop. I did want to say thank you to you all, as i have really appreciated reading all the care and support i have seen here. That’s very encouraging to read. So thanks you lovely people.

[stopdog]

I am sorry it is taking them so long to be able to help you. It is a horrible system. Good luck with getting a bed soon.

[WikidPissah]

Thank you for taking the plunge and trusting us. I really hope a bed opens up for you soon, that's a horrible thing to have to wait for. Try to hang in there...and post a lot while you're going thru it, it helps me to post stuff.

[nannypat]

I am sorry this has taken so long. I know there are not enough beds anywhere. The hospital I have been to will move patients around to free up a single room if that is what is required as long as they have some one in a single that that is not a requirement. I know every one would like a single and you can put your name on a list if one should open up that is medically not needed, but if someone comes in that does require the single, then the room is given up for them,as it should be. I hope something comes through for you soon.

[For real]

Thank you so much for your replies and support. Here the system sux here...but I'm guessing you guys/ gals are from America (or I'm just assuming -not sure why.) Does the private and public system suck there as well.?? I have a "clinical need" for a single room lucky me - not.
I think I when find it hard to post comment, given where my head is at. But I do find it encouraging to read other posts. You people ate amazing... so supportive and understanding it is inspiring to read.

[For real]

Oppsie... sorry I'm typing on my mobile n it thinks it can spell better than me...I don't think so!!

[granite1]

welcome i'm so glad you decided to post here there are a lot of awsome people here who can completely understand.please hang out with us and accept whatever support we are able to give.it must be so hard to be waiting and having to hold it together for so long.i hope a bed open up soon or your T returns soon.big hugs your way .

[For real]

Thanks granite. I'm not sure when my T returns... all I know is it is tooooo far away. My mind couldn't tell me...maybe cuz I'm in to much pain or maybe cuz I'm pissed with her. I know I have an apmt on Monday (she made an apmt for me in her holidays, before she left.) I really don't want to go. I'm so upset n angry with her.
Aaaa wot to do??? Not worry bout it for now, it's 4days away