i had a strong urge

to bring a knife to therapy.

idk why.....

Ooh. Bad plan. Don't go there. Why on earth would that seem like a good idea? What is the thinking behind this? How about discussing that urge with your T. Much better to talk about it than to risk impulsively acting on that urge.

newtus,
i had that urge once, and i did bring the knife but left it in the car. around the end of the session i told my therapist i couldn't go back in my car then i shut down... she wanted to know why... after some time i told her there was a knife and what my urges were about the knife.... I realize that i had brought the knife because i wanted help that i was not getting... i didn't know when i left home why, i just brought it.... after talking about it with, we diceded that i needed to be in hospital..... to tell you the truth, it was a relief.... my therapist called my pdoc and arranged hospitalization...
Those urges are scary.......
don't bring the knife, but TELL your therapist when you get there......

I had a knife when my nurse come to see me, she kind of knew what I was thinking so she didn't come alone - she was cool about it though, so understood why.

I was going to bring one when I went to see my psychologist, I kind of told her in an email and she guessed what I meant. She took me to a different room to ask if I had one - but I left it at home, she said she couldn't see me if I brought one though, she also understood why though.

So now I rely on glass soda bottles, when I see my psychologist.

good idea about just talking about it instead of bringing it.

i should correct the title to "have" instead of "had" actually.

i havent had my therapy buts its in a few days and for some reason ive been deeply thinking about it for a couple of days. after getting reactions on here, idk what i was thinking...im mostly alone all day physically except for my father. i have no friends or any other family around me i mean. i stay in the house all day mostly all week so i dont get feedback from people really. idk what i was thinking about the actual action guess.

but the thought behind doing the action...yea it wasnt good i mean. i guess i feel like i want to hurt someone.

the reactions though....im not bringing anything. dont really know what i was thinking..

Yes but that's just a phantasy. Its not an unusual one and perhaps just a metaphor for how you are feeling.