[SpiritRunner]

Grrrr.
So, awhile ago, the end of March, to be precise, T2 wrote a letter to the County Attorney's office here where I live to inform them that I had moved back home and was also well enough to be discharged from my commitment, as she felt I had made a lot of progress and was certainly no longer a danger to myself or others, either.
Well, they simply didn't respond very quickly and last week I asked her if she had heard anything. So she called them and finally talked to the deputy county attorney. Who said, just because she moved back home is not a reason to discharge her - T told me this when she called me today to tell me the update. I said, well, duh, of course that's not the reason you thought I should be discharged; it was that I was well enough to be discharged and had made significant process!
But anyway, so, even though T2 has been in contact with me on a consistent basis since I stopped having sessions with her and moved home in January, this doesn't count. I am supposed to provide an account of my mental health status for those months .... but I didn't have a T, except for the marriage counselor, who we saw for 6 sessions ending in March. This lady could vouch for my sane mental status .... but if her records mainly show that there was only family counseling done, the mental health board doesn't give a pig's ear about that. Apparently, marriage counseling is not relevant to proving/aiding/demonstrating improved mental health status .. or something. Sheesh.
So, the upshot is that I have NOT been released, even though T2 jumped through all her hoops. Now, I have a bunch of hoops to jump through. Starting with contacting marriage T to see what she can say or do on my behalf, sign a release, etc etc. If that works, then good. Then there'd probably be some hearing to formally release me. That would be the simplest scenario.
Or, if marriage T can't vouch for my sanity/stability/competence and lack of serious need for therapy, then I have to search out some psychologist to do an evaluation on me. And get all sorts of records from hospital/T2 to show my past mental state so this person knows all the nasty stuff and stuffing of my horrible, shattering, agonizing breakdown last year (of which marriage stuff was indeed a factor, so having worked on that should count for something here!).
The upshot of this part is that I am still really obligated to be in therapy and show some sort of proof that I am in it/continuing in it even though I no longer really need it OR want it and am, by T2's frank assessment, competent enough to clearly and concisely judge that for myself. So - I am pissed about all this hoop-jumping I have to do; however, I get that I was extremely sick last summer and the severity of that compels these people to make sure ALL bases are covered (as well as their @$$ es). But, I am still not pleased.
And not pleased that the county attorney and T2's supervisors do not think continuing to see her in a supportive, check-in manner every 3 months when I visit my parents is viable. She was open to it, as she's unconventional, but apparently the whole thing sounds odd to her superiors. I guess it is unusual, as has been the fact she continued to have phone contact with me, but it has worked. I don't need therapy, but some support and a sounding board is nice from time to time, and I told her today that's all I want - NOT therapy, not really, no more poking into all the dark places and wallowing in the past. I am not stuffing my feelings, I have dealt with past crap, why go over it again! I know how to deal with my feelings now and I also DO NOT WANT to get stuck in a uncomfortable painful complicated intense therapeutic relationship again! I only want to check in with T2 from time to time - she knows me, she works for me, her style worked with me ..... but then again ... well, best not get started on that, that's material for another thread!
Sorry this is long. Just me venting.
It's their game and their rules, so I have to play the game by their rules and I will, but I am irritated by the whole thing. I am healthy and well and would like to be free of this!
So - yeah - my simple advice is, don't get EPC'd and get stuck on this sort of commitment, because it's not easy to get free of it so much. (nonetheless, it was the right thing for me at that time, with the state of mind I was in......and all that was going on)

[stopdog]

That sounds very irritating indeed. I wish it were not such a giant and pointless hassle they are putting you through.

[SpiritRunner]

oh, and now it occurs to the last word of my title may be some sort of circumvention of the cuss rules .... if so, no offense if it's edited .....

[SpiritRunner]

Originally Posted by stopdog

That sounds very irritating indeed. I wish it were not such a giant and pointless hassle they are putting you through.

I know. It seems pointless. Except for the fact that calmly and competently handling it will indeed demonstrate my sanity and mental stability/capability, I think.

[WikidPissah]

wow..yikes. I am going to put this on a post-it in my wallet! Sorry you are stuck in this mess.

[SpiritRunner]

a small update on this situation ......
I called our marriage T and stopped in to see her today. It was interesting, because I wanted to go to the gym after, but thought it would be more proper to wear something a bit nicer .... but I might as well as have worn my gym stuff, because she wore hers!
Anyway, I signed the release form, but she also gave me a bit of homework to do and bring back to her .. like a care treatment plan, a personal ongoing care plan. It's 3 pages and comprehensive but not too much to do. This way, that can satisfy perhaps the board's desire for her to have done individual assessment of me, I think.
And then we talked for a while, and it turned out to be a long while, really. Just discussing different things about my progress and what I'd do in the event of decompensation, my feelings about therapy and meds and reasoning for not wanting it now, stuff about the situation last summer and with T1. Turns out this T knows T1 fairly well .... and said knowing her, and putting that with what she knows about me, she could definitely see the grounds for strong transference/countertransference issues!
Anyway, she's pretty sure that she can help me with getting the release, that they'll be satisfied with what she provides them, and that they probably will not spend a lot of time hassling me after this. That would be great!

[stopdog]

It would be great. I hope it works out.

[rainbow_rose]

i hope it works out too, SpiritRunner