I just woke up, and just before waking up I had my first-ever (that I can remember) dream about T. I had brought my sister and somebody else to therapy, to be there for the first minutes of the session so they could ask T questions, and T asked if she could read them some of her notes about my background, which I agreed to. But she held the notes in a way that made it possible to read some really specific detailed notes from our sessions, which I had not agreed to share. I moved so I sat between T and the others so they wouldn't see the notes. Meanwhile the next client (a whole family) was coming into the room, and I got really worried that they would be there for the rest of my session. Turned out I wasn't getting a session, instead I had to leave when the other two people left.

Weird dream for several reasons - I'd never bring anybody to T, my sister doesn't know I'm seeing a therapist and I'd hate for her to find out, and if there is one thing I'm NOT worried about it's that T would share what I say with anybody. And she's told me that the notes she takes down are very unspecific in any case. Last night before going to sleep I was worrying about a letter that a friend of mine is going to write to my pdoc. Maybe that's what I was dreaming about really.

I'll tell T about it at my last session with her on Wednesday - I think it might interest her.

Now I feel silly for sharing this uninteresting stuff, but I wanted to document it before I forgot and this place was the first I thought of.

[WikidPissah]

Not uninteresting stuff! Dreams are always food for fodder around here. I don't have any clue if it means anything...other then T is going to be interrupted for you (since your ending soon).

[confuseduk]

please don't feel silly, I'm really glad you have shared it and written it down. I hope you can share this with your T on Wednesday. Maybe your friend writing to your pdoc is affecting you more than you realise?

[pbutton]

Don't feel silly! I was immediately intrigued by the thread title. I don't have anything of value to add, but I found it interesting.

[2or3things]

I don't really know anything about what's going on in your life right now, but as I understand it, dreams like this aren't at all uncommon--lots of people have dreams that are in some way about anxiety about sharing T with others. (Think about it...it showed up in 3 different ways in your dream. First, you had other people in your session. Second, you were nervous about a different sort of sharing--the notes. Third, you had to share your time (or, give it up, really) for the clients after you.)

Seems not at all surprising given the stuff others have said. (You're terminating soon with T, and a friend wrote to pdoc.) Have some thoughts and feelings about all that you need to share, maybe?

Good stuff. I wish I'd remember more dreams than I do...that's always the stuff that is most productive for me in T.

Thanks for sharing!