[pbutton]

I so very rarely talk about my feelings during my sessions.

I thought I wanted to see him today, but maybe I don't.

Feelings are annoying. Yuck.

2 and a half hours to go.

[critterlady]

You don't have to, but you may regret missing the last opportunity to do so. It can be a very powerful thing to talk about your relationship and what it's meant to you.

[pbutton]

I'm pretty sure he's tried to go in that direction for the past few sessions. I responded by staring blankly at the floor.

It would probably be in my best interests. Damn it.

[regretful]

Having been both a therapist and in therapy, I can tell you that termination (if that is what the session is - and I'm assuming that from the prior post) is something that affects both parties involved. I agree with critterlady - use the opportunity. Therapy is a great place to work on ending relationships on a good note. I always thought that therapy gives us a chance to do in an artificial situation (you know, you probably never would have an intimate conversation about your life with that person UNLESS you were in therapy) what we can't do in real life. Best wishes.

I think you should print out the original post in the other thread to give to him. It will give you a good starting place for talking about it.

For what it's worth, I never told my first therapist (FT) how I felt about him at the end. I was so shut off and closed down, I barely even remember 'the end' with him. I was just done because it was the end of the semester and that was that. I got up to walk out for the last time, and HE was like, "that's it? You're just going to walk out and that's it? You're NEVER going to hug me or anything?" I think it may have hurt his feelings that I was able to leave so easily. But, he's the one who said I was dissociative and had an attachment issue, so why it surprised him I could do that is beyond me. Double It was YEARS later that I ended up writing to FT because I felt badly that I never told him how grateful I was and how valuable the experience of being in therapy with him was. Even just last year, when my dad was dying, I felt the need to get in touch with FT again to tell him what a difference he had made in my life and how much I valued the years of having a good relationship with my dad thanks to doing therapy with FT.

So, I definitely think that you will regret not telling him how you feel.

[kiki86]

DO IT!!! lol then i can remember you doing it and it'll help me do it tomorrow. :P

i think you'll regret it if you don't say anything. anyway how bad could it be. after 50 minutes all the embarrassment will be over

[pbutton]

True. I can tell him anything I want - I'm not going to have to see him ever again. Good point.

[Kacey2]

Thinking of you ((Pbutton))!......................How did it go?

[Perna]

So, it's over. What'd you decide to do?

[healed84]

Hoping you last session went as well as it could have. (((hugs)))