T leaving the practice (Part III)

So, I've had time to think about different solutions with T leaving practice (Parts i and ii), and I do truly appreciate the support and hugs. It's so nice that you guys understand how difficult it is regarding next steps Thank you.

My T and I spoke about it in person, and I shared my concerns about her leaving and where I we are right now. And how I am worried about what comes next. I cried.

I told I feel as if I am a better person for our time together.

I feel really sad. But I also am really happy for her and her next steps. She is the best. We discussed different options - I cried some more - we threw around some "wish list" ideas (my wish list, of course ).

In our next meeting, we will continue to think about the transitioning to a new T. In the meantime, I will continue to celebrate and think positively about the solid foundation that she and I worked on creating together. That part won't go away

We will meet again next week to talk about more ideas and how the process of transition will happen.

I feel so sad and I'm still teary eyed (I already mentioned that - twice sorry!).

BUT Instead of taking a nap, though, to not feel the sadness, I am allowing myself to feel it (it HURTS). I came here to write to you all and share what's going on. I feel better for you being here and having those to relate with.

I will keep you posted. Thanks again ((((Rose))))

Rose, I'm glad you're letting yourself feel the sadness. I know it hurts, but the way out is through.

When my first T told me he was leaving, I was devastated. I'd just come to a point of trusting him. I cried every time we talked about him leaving and every time I thought about it outside of sessions. Like you, we took the "celebrate and think positively" approach and the solid foundation he built served me well with my next (current and hopefully only other) T.

Good job on letting yourself feel the feelings. I hope I can get to that point very soon myself. I know I would be hurting if I lost my T for any reason.