[Thornsandroses]

Last Friday I had two appointments, one with my Pdoc and one with my T. The appt with my pdoc ended with her discharging me and referring me to another pdoc. My pdoc was just fed up with me and I don't blame her. None the less, it still hurt. I have never been fired by a pdoc before and I was hurting pretty bad, I still am.

Later that day I had an appt with my T and when I was trying to explain to her about pdoc firing me. I felt like my T was being completely apathetic to the whole situation. Because I was still upset with both of them, I was unable to attend my session with T yesterday.

Well, today, T called out of the blue, and this is how the conversation went.

T: Hi, this is T.
Me: Oh hi, .......I didn't expect to hear from you.
T: I hope everything is alright, I got your email saying you would not be coming to your appt this week, because you were upset, and I wasn't sure what to think about that. Are you alright?
Me: I'm ok.....
T: So will I see you next Wednesday?
Me: Long silence........................................I don't know if I will be there or not.
T: Why?
Me: I have explained my reasons in the past.
T: I'm sorry, I just don't remember.
Me: I understand, I know you have a boat load of clients, and can't be expected to remember everything. Well, there are a number of reasons and also it's my Birthday.
T: Oh that's right! You told me your Bday is on Wednesday ........Tell you what, if you come in, I will have a Birthday cupcake for you.
Me: I really don't want you to do that, I don't want to put you out, and I would also feel embarrassed.
T: Oh don't feel that way, I love Birthdays!!!
Me: Well, I don't know if I will be able to make it, because I haven't been able to leave my house due to my recent increase in depression.
T: You have to come in, I don't want to eat the cupcakes all alone.
Me: I can't promise I will be there.
T: Thornsandroses, I would really like for you to come in for your session on Wednesday, so we can talk about what's bothering you. You need to work through this.
Me: I know....
T: (After a long silence).......Well I have to go, I have another client coming in at 4.
Me: Ok, bye
T: Hope to see you on Wednesday, bye.

Funny thing is I really don't want her to bring in a cupcakes for me, but if she forgot I would be devastated, but only because she forgot though, not because I want her to bring in a cupcake for me.... Lord knows, I don't need to be eatin any cupcakes. Thanks to Seroquel.......

[CantExplain]

((ThornsAndRoses))

Maybe it's not what you need right now, but your T is certainly trying to help you.

[anilam]

I see what you mean- it's not about the cupcake it's about your T thinking of you and remembering you have a B-day. It's such a nice gesture and I so hope she doesn't forget...
BTW half a cupcake it's stg around 200kcal (maximum) so you can take it as a snack- it's your B-day afterall.

Please let us know how it went.

[WikidPissah]

Now you have to go just to see if T remembers. And I really hope she does.

Originally Posted by Thornsandroses

Lord knows, I don't need to be eatin any cupcakes. Thanks to Seroquel.......

yea, I remember seroquel. good dreams but lots of weight gain.

Roses, I hope you make it too your session and T remembers the cupcakes. I recognise the importance of her/him remembering. It's symbolic isn't it. Oh and happy birthday For Wednesday.

[shoez]

Oh sweetie, I truly hope you go.
I really do. I think it might help. If you need pocket riders, and are ok with that, Im in. many many sage hugs to you

[SpiritRunner]

I'd go too, just to see if she does remember, and boy, I hope she does too! I know how it matters to have T remember.
And yeah, you can still have half a cupcake for your birthday .... the calories are different in birthday treats, you know.
Happy birthday, too.

[bluemountains]

(((Thornsandroses)))
I am sorry that you had a difficult time with your pdoc. It sounds like your t really wants to help you, and I hope you are able to go to your session. Your t is very caring. I don't think my t would miss me if I couldn't go to an appointment.
Bluemountains

[unaluna]

no no no!!! this is backsliding!!! this is where we were a year ago! people not showing up for therapy! we're not going there again! okay, sorry... rant over. but I would propose you have to sit at the kids table like at family holidays, then when you do go to your session, THEN you can come to "the Couch". I hope you have a good session with CAAAAAAAAKE!!!!

[Thornsandroses]

Thank you all so much for all the love and caring you are showing me. Now I feel like I just have to go to Therapy on Wednesday. Oh and I would love pocket riders, the more the merrier, what's a Bday without friends right!

I think T put a lot of pressure on herself when she offered to bring in cupcakes...if she forgets I will understand though, I think she told me a few weeks ago that she has 109 clients, I don't see how she remembers anything about any of her clients, but she does.

I go to a mental health clinic twice a week. Usually every Tue. and Fri.

I really do love her and going to therapy most of the time, but sometimes she really p%$#@ me off...

[lostin08]

Hey Thorn oh yes you go and get your cupcake.If she forgets you bust her out. Tell her if you say your going to do something you need to do it. Isn't that and issue for all of us in therapy?