[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

So my t is a rather good t for the most part, there have been some questionable things but in general, he's been a huge help for me.

Problem is (as I posted in two other threads, but am a bit concerned now) he made a comment that was rather upsetting. You know how a huge fear in therapy for many is upsetting their t? Well that fear may become my reality. He's honestly not a bad t and has helped me with many things but... Today he said if I was schizophrenic he would be "p*ssed" something that is a possibility as I have been diagnosed schizophrenic before.

But he's on the side of my other diagnosis of DID (saying he and my pdoc are %100 sure) and doesn't believe the schizophrenia, but for him to say if I were schizophrenic, that he would be "p*ssed", it worries me. I guess he thinks my method of treatment would have to change but I don't think it should. Now I'm kind of worried to be honest with him, I wasn't before but now knowing that if my past diagnosis were true that he would be actually angry, it upsets and worries me.

Maybe he said that because they would change me to the pdoc instead of him and he would lose me as a patient (as he specializes in my other DX of DID and my pdoc specialized in psychotic disorders) but none the less, knowing a part of who I may be would make him mad is worrisome. I just don't know where to go from here, I'm kind of worried to continue to be honest, meds are not what I need, despite the diagnosis, therapy is what I need. But not when I'm afraid to be honest with him.

Again, he's been a good helpful t, but this isn't so helpful, I just don't know where to go from here in this, holding information back wont help me, but neither will the fear of angering him

Is it possible that what he means is that he would be angry if the diagnosis of schizophrenia were made, rather that at you for being schizophrenic? That maybe this would change the treatment/meds and he thinks that the way things are now is the best?

You say that overall he's a good T, so I can't imagine a good T making a statement like that and meaning that he would be p!ssed at YOU!!

[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

TYhat could be and that's what I've been hoping for, his words though when we were going over some symptoms of mine were "If you were schizophrenic I'd be so p*ssed"

It's not like it would be a new diagnosis, I've been diagnosed as that many times before, heck even my father is schizophrenic. But despite my symptoms or titles, it doesn't change the DID diagnosis, so it shouldn't matter enough to p him off but... Now I worry he may find out that both and not just DID were true...

[Sannah]

Are you going to ask him why he would be upset? Maybe he feels that Schizophrenia is harder to treat and he would be upset for you?

[Perna]

Yes, I think you are going to have to ask him what he meant about being pissed. I can't imagine he would be pissed at you; things are what they are (assuming we can figure out what they are) and it is not you would be making him angry but perhaps the situation and something it entails.

[kiki86]

I agree that you should ask him what he meant because that's an odd thing to say. he should have been more careful with his words but don't assume the worst, i bet he meant that he'd pissed at a dx of schizophrenia because he doesn't agree with it

[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

I'm 100% afraid of any form of confrontation. How do I ask him this? Without sounding like a baby or making him upset?

Purple, you won't make him upset by asking him for clairifacation on why he said he would be pissed. Although I agree with what some others have said- that he might have meant that he would be pissed about the situation not about you. Maybe he was showing you that he cares. He's a good T, surely he does not want you to have these diagnoisos-he wants you to be happy and healthy. Just flat out ask him what he meant when he said he would be pissed and let him know you were worried he would be mad at you. Sounds like good transferrence stuff to work on.

[Lupinespiritalso]

I imagine he.meant.pissed he missed it. He wants what is best for you I am sure and.if there was significant delay in proper help.it would be disconcerting for him I am sure...

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by PurpleFlyingMonkeys

I'm 100% afraid of any form of confrontation. How do I ask him this? Without sounding like a baby or making him upset?

Try to realize why you are afraid to ask him (because of past occurrences with others?) and tell yourself that it is because of the past and not really from this current situation. How about "why would you be pissed if I was diagnosed .......".

Originally Posted by PurpleFlyingMonkeys

I'm 100% afraid of any form of confrontation. How do I ask him this? Without sounding like a baby or making him upset?

I don't like confrontation either. Why don't you just say that it's been bothering you a little bit that he said <insert what he said>. Don't make a big deal out of it. Just say that you know it's a little thing, but it's been on your mind, so you want to ask him what he meant so you can stop worrying about it. I think that's a fairly mature way to handle it, and I can't imagine any reason in the world why he would not respond to you with an explanation or clarification. That's what therapy is about - to talk about things, and clear up misunderstandings or confusion.

I hope you can find some way to bring this up since it's so obviously on your mind and bothering you.

[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

That sounds like just what I need to do. I'll minimize it but be sure to bring it up when I see him on Wednesday I don't need to be worried about what he thinks, I wont be able to work through my problems if I do