I am just having trouble lately. I am not as depressed this week, luckily, but as the title indicates, I'm really uneasy and feeling restless today. I haven't been able to exercise much lately, so I know that's part of it, but some of it is therapy and the couples therapy my H and I have been doing.

Therapy last week centered on something really hard for me, as I posted about. Then in couples' therapy, my husband said some things about me that weren't true and then he and therapist kept talking so much that I could never address what he had to say. It's not the first time it's happened either. When H and I talked about it finally, he acknowledged it wasn't literally true, but said it 'felt' true, like that makes it okay somehow. Also, I talked to him about how hard I've worked in my own therapy to get better and he rolled his eyes at me. He does NOT think I'm better even though I'm no longer so suicidally depressed that I cannot even get out of bed. He said he just doesn't 'see' that I'm better or that I've worked hard to improve.

Not sure if I feel like punching someone in the face, or like going back to bed and staying there, or what. Maybe some vacillation between the two.

I want desperately to talk to my therapist and called him. Then I ignored the call when he called back. THEN I called him again and left a message, but said I didn't need to talk to him today because I can handle things until I see him tomorrow. THEN I decided I was just going to quit therapy because apparently it's not making me any better and it's actually making my marriage worse and I want to stay married AND I don't want to talk to T about what we talked about last week ever again. EVER.

So, apparently I want to talk to T constantly, but never see him again. And I want to punch someone in the face, from my bed with the covers over my head.

[pbutton]

I suppose it would be wrong of me to suggest a solution that consisted of meeting up with your T in your bed, no?

[WikidPissah]

Originally Posted by My kids are cool

So, apparently I want to talk to T constantly, but never see him again. And I want to punch someone in the face, from my bed with the covers over my head.

sounds about right for what you've been thru in the past week.

I have never done marriage T, but it sounds horrid to me. The last thing I want to know is what H really thinks of me, especially now when I am thinking so little of myself.

[stopdog]

I have felt like I wanted to attack and yet did not want to leave my bed. I hope it gets better soon.

Originally Posted by pbutton

I suppose it would be wrong of me to suggest a solution that consisted of meeting up with your T in your bed, no?

Well, the Naked Therapist is raking in the bucks doing therapy in the nude. Maybe some clever T will start a business of Therapy in Bed. Maybe being under the covers with T would increase the intimacy factor so clients would speak more freely? Hmmm ....

Originally Posted by TheBunnyWithin

Well, the Naked Therapist is raking in the bucks doing therapy in the nude. Maybe some clever T will start a business of Therapy in Bed. Maybe being under the covers with T would increase the intimacy factor so clients would speak more freely? Hmmm ....

Okay, now I'm restless, uneasy AND my heart is pounding. LOL. But, you've solved my ambivalence. I want to be with him constantly WHILE under the covers so I cannot see him. hahahahaha.

Originally Posted by My kids are cool

I am just having trouble lately. I am not as depressed this week, luckily, but as the title indicates, I'm really uneasy and feeling restless today. I haven't been able to exercise much lately, so I know that's part of it, but some of it is therapy and the couples therapy my H and I have been doing.

Therapy last week centered on something really hard for me, as I posted about. Then in couples' therapy, my husband said some things about me that weren't true and then he and therapist kept talking so much that I could never address what he had to say. It's not the first time it's happened either. When H and I talked about it finally, he acknowledged it wasn't literally true, but said it 'felt' true, like that makes it okay somehow. Also, I talked to him about how hard I've worked in my own therapy to get better and he rolled his eyes at me. He does NOT think I'm better even though I'm no longer so suicidally depressed that I cannot even get out of bed. He said he just doesn't 'see' that I'm better or that I've worked hard to improve.

Not sure if I feel like punching someone in the face, or like going back to bed and staying there, or what. Maybe some vacillation between the two.

I want desperately to talk to my therapist and called him. Then I ignored the call when he called back. THEN I called him again and left a message, but said I didn't need to talk to him today because I can handle things until I see him tomorrow. THEN I decided I was just going to quit therapy because apparently it's not making me any better and it's actually making my marriage worse and I want to stay married AND I don't want to talk to T about what we talked about last week ever again. EVER.

So, apparently I want to talk to T constantly, but never see him again. And I want to punch someone in the face, from my bed with the covers over my head.

Don't you just love ambivalence??? Sounds like you really need to talk about last week's stuff, but you just don't wanna. I hope your next session gives you some relief from this.

Originally Posted by My kids are cool

Okay, now I'm restless, uneasy AND my heart is pounding. LOL. But, you've solved my ambivalence. I want to be with him constantly WHILE under the covers so I cannot see him. hahahahaha.

Yah, that has an appeal for me too. No eye contact - love it! The therapy in bed thing just might work ......

[stopdog]

I would rather eat cool whip than think about beds and the therapist. And i despise cool whip. But if it keeps mkac from face punching, i am glad.

i so understand calling t and then when he calls back, ignoring his call. except that usually he just calls back; again, and again, and again, etc.
talk to t, let him know. it is scary going back to t after sharing. afraid of their reaction. but usually t is just t. i am the one afraid.

i'm divorced, so no help there.
mkac, go be with t, he will help. he understands. and he will be there for you!

[WikidPissah]

You probably should just talk to T. I know that when I am struggling, just hearing his voice makes it a little bit better. (crap, I hate him for that)