Home Menu

Menu


Reply
Thread Tools Display Modes
  #26  
Old Jul 20, 2012, 07:34 AM
athena.agathon's Avatar
athena.agathon athena.agathon is offline
Member
 
Member Since: Jun 2012
Posts: 190
Quote:
Originally Posted by Apteryx
Should I just trust that it's OK to talk about anything, lower defences and be vulnerable to the point where I might show emotion? What if I say too much and it isn't OK (or, God forbid, if I start crying)? I would really like to think that it would be OK, but I just don't know how to find out...
As the chief of this thread, I decree that you are not monopolizing this thread. This is all totally relevant, and I'm not big on follow-up, so converse away...

So obviously, if you're doing CBT around a specific phobia, trust is helpful (because getting in the elevator is scary), but it's not the same as if you are in a psychodynamic or experiential therapy. And cognitive-behavioral therapists are not that interested generally in talking about trust/intimacy/vulnerability issues, so it makes sense to choose your context and not go there with them. But that doesn't sound like what you are doing--am I right?

Like Soup says, the only way to find out if it's OK or not OK is to go there and see what happens if you do talk about something scary.

I've had a lot of the same problems (what's OK to talk about? what if I freak out? T can't handle this ********!), and my therapist suggested two things: A) I talk about why I don't want to talk about it and see if he can address some of my concerns and B) I pick something difficult but more manageable (not the most threatening thing I can think of) and then see what happens.

advertisement
  #27  
Old Jul 20, 2012, 08:27 AM
critterlady's Avatar
critterlady critterlady is offline
Magnate
 
Member Since: Feb 2012
Posts: 2,344
Quote:
Originally Posted by athena.agathon View Post
I've had a lot of the same problems (what's OK to talk about? what if I freak out? T can't handle this ********!), and my therapist suggested two things: A) I talk about why I don't want to talk about it and see if he can address some of my concerns and B) I pick something difficult but more manageable (not the most threatening thing I can think of) and then see what happens.
That's exactly what my T says, too. We've spent a lot of time talking about how hard some things are to talk about and why. We've deferred a number of conversations until I can manage them. We talk about things that I can talk about.

Just last week, I finally decided that I had just enough trust to tell him about my CSA. Hardest thing I ever did, but I feel closer to him now than I ever have and I trust him even more.

And sometimes it just boils down to screwing up your courage and taking a risk.
  #28  
Old Jul 20, 2012, 09:01 AM
Crescent Moon's Avatar
Crescent Moon Crescent Moon is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: Apr 2012
Posts: 1,565
Quote:
Originally Posted by Apteryx View Post
This is connected to what I was trying to ask yesterday. Whether it is OK to talk about trust or not clearly depends on the T and on the kind of therapy they offer. But I've also been thinking that it might or might not be OK to talk about the kind of thing that requires trust - if that makes sense. I mean, if I want help with my elevator phobia I may not need to trust my T completely to the point where I talk about my CSA (these are fictitious examples since I haven't suffered CSA and don't have a problem with elevators), and the T probably would be a bit impatient if I were to start going into that kind of thing with her.

Should I just trust that it's OK to talk about anything, lower defences and be vulnerable to the point where I might show emotion? What if I say too much and it isn't OK (or, God forbid, if I start crying)? I would really like to think that it would be OK, but I just don't know how to find out...

I don't mean to monopolise this thread - my situation isn't really relevant here, but the general questions might be interesting to more people than me.
I cannot imagine a therapist not being aware of how crucial it is for a client to trust them. I am a health care provider in pediatrics, and the absolute most important thing to me from the very beginning of a hospitalization is that I earn the patient's and their parents' trust. I'm often especially focused on earning the parents' trust, because if their child sees their parents at ease with me, then they will often take their cues from their parents.

I understand what you're saying about degrees of trust. I think you're right, that you could accomplish a short-term therapy goal being treated for a phobia without feeling you trust that therapist enough to open up your deepest wounds.

That said, if a therapist was not responsive to a conversation about trust, I'd find another therapist. Out of all health care professionals, therapists should be the best equipped to understand the dynamics of trust. ALL successful relationships are built on a foundation of trust.
__________________
  #29  
Old Jul 20, 2012, 02:06 PM
Anonymous32517
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
I'm not sure if I want to hear that of course I should talk to T about trust and vulnerability, or if I want to get my prejudices against doing that confirmed

Eleven years or so ago, I had to do a health evaluation thing at work - "how often do you exercise", "do you have any problems with lighting/seating position/repetitive movements at work" etc, which included some question about mood. Unfortunately I decided to answer it honestly, so was called to the staff psychologist. This was my first meeting with a psychologist so I was really nervous, and (again) unfortunately I thought it would be a good idea to tell her that because she's a psychologist so she'll understand that, right? Did she 'eckers like. Instead, she asked me rather sharply why I thought I had to be nervous, and made the pronouncement that I was just tense - and gave me a referral to a physiotherapist who worked within the psychiatric health services. She, in turn, was a disaster; on my third visit or so when she asked me how I was feeling, I told her that I'd been feeling rather suicidal recently - and got a reply on the lines of "Oh, that's not so good. Make sure you have somebody to talk to when that happens." (I've told that anecdote before, I think.)

That was a really roundabout way to say that I am not very confident about bringing up the issue of whether I feel safe or vulnerable (or both) in the therapy situation, because what if my feelings are irrelevant and I have no business feeling like that? Current T has given me no reason to believe that he'd react like that. Quite the opposite, which is why I'm able even to think about bringing it up. But if he did - well.
  #30  
Old Jul 20, 2012, 02:32 PM
Anonymous32517
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
Oh, and I should perhaps have said - I'm not in T for any particular well-defined issue, so I'm not in CBT or any other BT where you get homework and have a small, set number of sessions and don't go deep into, you know, stuff.
  #31  
Old Jul 20, 2012, 05:24 PM
Anonymous100300
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
Apt, why not ask "hypothetically" what is okay to talk about in T? What does T not want to you to discuss? I think those 2 questions asked of your T would start a great conversation.
  #32  
Old Jul 20, 2012, 05:38 PM
athena.agathon's Avatar
athena.agathon athena.agathon is offline
Member
 
Member Since: Jun 2012
Posts: 190
Quote:
Originally Posted by Apteryx
I had to do a health evaluation thing at work - "how often do you exercise", "do you have any problems with lighting/seating position/repetitive movements at work" etc, which included some question about mood. Unfortunately I decided to answer it honestly, so was called to the staff psychologist. This was my first meeting with a psychologist so I was really nervous, and (again) unfortunately I thought it would be a good idea to tell her that because she's a psychologist so she'll understand that, right? Did she 'eckers like. Instead, she asked me rather sharply why I thought I had to be nervous, and made the pronouncement that I was just tense - and gave me a referral to a physiotherapist who worked within the psychiatric health services. She, in turn, was a disaster; on my third visit or so when she asked me how I was feeling, I told her that I'd been feeling rather suicidal recently - and got a reply on the lines of "Oh, that's not so good. Make sure you have somebody to talk to when that happens." (I've told that anecdote before, I think.)
This goes back to context... I don't know what the situation is in Sweden but in the US, we call this kind of workplace health support EAP (employee assistance programs) and the problem with EAP is that it is primarily to make you more functional for work. A lot of the time the way it works is that the health care professionals involved owe allegiance primarily to your employer and not you. Which is not good for trust.

Quote:
Originally Posted by Apteryx
That was a really roundabout way to say that I am not very confident about bringing up the issue of whether I feel safe or vulnerable (or both) in the therapy situation, because what if my feelings are irrelevant and I have no business feeling like that?
It sounds like this might be the right therapist to bring this up with! I doubt your feelings are irrelevant and you never "have no business" feeling whatever you feel. One thing I'm learning is that feelings are not good or bad...they just are.
  #33  
Old Jul 20, 2012, 06:27 PM
lostmyway21's Avatar
lostmyway21 lostmyway21 is offline
Magnate
 
Member Since: Dec 2011
Location: NYC
Posts: 2,208
For me being vulnerable means being able to tell T ANY thing without having to fear being judged the next week when you go back. To be able to trust that T will always have your best interest at heart no matter what you tell them.
__________________
My heart is numb but with you, I can feel again.
  #34  
Old Jul 20, 2012, 06:41 PM
Butterflies Are Free Butterflies Are Free is offline
Grand Member
 
Member Since: Jun 2011
Location: USA
Posts: 892
I am vulnerable with my T when I allow myself to cry and ask her to hold my hand or ask for a hug. I share my fears and my shame and tell her when I am feeling vulnerable. This has taken some time to get to this point but now... Wow, I feel so much freer now and truly feel seen by my T. I know I have nothing to hide. Now I am working on applying all of this with family/friends.
  #35  
Old Jul 20, 2012, 08:35 PM
rainbow_rose's Avatar
rainbow_rose rainbow_rose is offline
looking for rainbows
 
Member Since: May 2011
Posts: 2,653
for me it means taking a risk - allowing myself to feel and say things that are scary. what i am discovering, every time I do that, there is growth
__________________
Happiness cannot be found
through great effort and willpower,
but is already present,
in open relaxation and letting go.

Don't strain yourself,
there is nothing to do or undo.
Whatever momentarily arises
in the body-mind
Has no real importance at all,
has little reality whatsoever.

Don't believe in the reality
of good and bad experiences;
they are today's ephemeral weather,
like rainbows in the sky.


~Venerable Lama Gendun Rinpoche~

Thanks for this!
SoupDragon
  #36  
Old Jul 20, 2012, 09:32 PM
CantExplain's Avatar
CantExplain CantExplain is offline
Big Poppa
 
Member Since: Oct 2011
Location: New Zealand
Posts: 19,616
A lobster needs to shed its shell before it can grow.
__________________
Mr Ambassador, alias Ancient Plax, alias Captain Therapy, alias Big Poppa, alias Secret Spy, etc.

Add that to your tattoo, Baby!
  #37  
Old Jul 20, 2012, 10:40 PM
Crescent Moon's Avatar
Crescent Moon Crescent Moon is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: Apr 2012
Posts: 1,565
Quote:
Originally Posted by SoupDragon View Post
I'm not sure if I do totally agree. I think trust is very fragile and can be easily broken and we need to feel safe. However I think we need to take a few risks ourselves - we can be told, know logically that a ladder is safe to climb, but it is ultimately us who has to put our foot on the rungs of the ladder. Also is it realistic to think that trust is ever completely unbreakable? Is it our response to breaches in trust and our ability to make ourselves feel safe and OK, that which is most important?
I see what you`re saying. Maybe our trust has to be realistic. Gotta know what our `deal breakers` are. I trust my therapist to `be there` for me. There have been times, though, that she has missed my cues, or has had a therapeutic blunder that caused me pain. She does make mistakes. Thing is. though, that she has been true to her word and has always responded when I`ve brought those things up. What I trust, is her unbreakable commitment to the relationship.. which means that she takes her role in repairing any ruptures very seriously. Never once in 4.5 years has she ever treated my complaints as trivial. She says that if it`s important to me, then it`s important to her.

Doesn`t get any better than that.
Thanks for this!
SoupDragon
  #38  
Old Jul 21, 2012, 04:16 AM
Anonymous32517
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
Quote:
Originally Posted by athena.agathon View Post
This goes back to context... I don't know what the situation is in Sweden but in the US, we call this kind of workplace health support EAP (employee assistance programs) and the problem with EAP is that it is primarily to make you more functional for work. A lot of the time the way it works is that the health care professionals involved owe allegiance primarily to your employer and not you. Which is not good for trust.
Yes, the workplace psychologist was of course mainly concerned with my health as related to my work situation. The person I was referred to worked in the public mental health care system, though.

Quote:
It sounds like this might be the right therapist to bring this up with! I doubt your feelings are irrelevant and you never "have no business" feeling whatever you feel. One thing I'm learning is that feelings are not good or bad...they just are.
Yes, but displaying them may be more or less appropriate
We'll see. Maybe I will try to bring this up. Thanks for all your comments.
Hugs from:
athena.agathon
Reply
Views: 7861

attentionThis is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.




All times are GMT -5. The time now is 12:12 PM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2025, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.




 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.