Scared of seeing my pdoc

Today I am going in too see my pdoc because I had such a terrible day yesterday and instead of him just talking to me on the phone he wants me in the office. It worries me so much because I feel like he is going to drop me as a patient because of financial reasons. But what can you do if you are so scared to be in public that you can not work on a regular basis? I thought about talking to him about disability but I am sure this will upset him. I feel like I have hit a wall here. I just got a new job and was suppose to start yesterday but had to lie to them so I could start a few days later. I don't want the job now at all but I know I have to have an income. I feel terrified! I tried to get a job with a little "less" responsibility and I was told I am too qualified. I just don't know where to go from here anymore. I just wish I could vanish!!! I spend alot of time in bed because it has always been my "safe place" and now I just look like I am a lazy blob to others. I am at my wits end with all this.

((((((((((( cherybery )))))))))))))

Sending you a hug because it's hard coping sometimes.

I hope it goes well with the pdoc tomorrow he/she will be on YOUR side.

Wish I could take all your worries away for you.

Take care.

Disability or working from home might be an idea. I used to know a lady who did medical transcription from home and made good money. If you try an idea like this though, make sure the company is reputable. Better Business Bureau might could check it out perhaps.
I hope the Pdoc appointment goes okey.