Psychotherapy>Welcome to The Couch! Now in its 16th season!

Hello. I am new here. My name is Susan. Idk what to say..

Welcome!

Thank you.

Hey, Susan, welcome.

Welcome Susan ie. ShadowPink. You can say anything you want here, the couch is like a chat room sorta, its a safe room. and we love emoticons

Hi Susan. Welcome.

MKAC - vent away. That's what the couch is for.

MKAC if you wanna talk... I am here for you, you have like 30 ways to get ahold of me...I would avoid snail mail as they closed lotsa post offices in my area and the speed is NOT up to par.

Lol. Thank you! That Smiley trying to catch the Butterfly is cute.

I guess instead of just doing one by one, I want to thank everybody for welcoming me. Lol.

Thanks for the concern guys. I mentioned on the last couch that the court DID penalize my client for my mistake, even though the case law says that it cannot. But, apparently the state supreme court does not have to follow its own case law, because, as the supreme court clerk says, they don't want to follow that rule anymore. So, I have spent the morning drafting letters to the client and the disciplinary administrator explaining what happened. Talked to the disciplinary admin on the phone and he says it is not the end of the world. It feels like it and like I am the worst person on the planet. He pointed out (as my mother in law did when it first happened) that one mistake per 20 years isn't the worst ratio in the world. I still feel awful. Really really really awful.

I am feeling really anxious today. I want to cry and run and hide in the corner or a hole or something.

And then, my cousin (the only person other than my older sister who is still talking to me) called and let me know he found out earlier this week that he has a terminal illness and he had asked my mom to tell me. I had called him earlier in the morning just to check on him because I knew he was having trouble breathing and went to the doctor about it earlier in the week. He returned my call a little perplexed and upset because he thought I would already know about the fatal illness since he told my mom early this week about it and asked her to tell me.

MKAC , i am so sorry you are having a rough time. The missing of the deadline is not the end of the world. I am sorry about your cousin and I am also sorry that your mother handled it in true fashion by not relaying the message to you. It truly saddens my heart when people I care about are going through rough times. I'll be thinking of you and if you need ANYTHING...call me, Ill even drive up there...just to hug ya!

Shadow did something happen?

welcome shadow
MKAC wow thats a lot no wonder you are in such a bad place. (((HUGS))))

Oh, oh, AND my older sister invited me to her son's birthday party where the entire family will be in attendance. This is the nephew that sent me snotty emails about how all the family fighting is my fault and I need to just 'get over' myself, and my little sister is so awesome and blah blah blah. He also criticized me for not attending his birthday parties as he was growing up, despite the fact that my older sister went through a period where she was trying to prove a point about how much I don't prioritize family so she would schedule his parties for days when I already said I was going to be out of town to try to force me to change my plans. When I didn't change my plans, she and my younger sister told my nephew about how this was 'proof' I didn't really really love him. So he was upset about that. So now if I go, it won't be enough because I didn't go when he was younger and it really mattered, and if I don't go, it will be proof that I don't care about him. AND my older sister and I have been getting along better, and she recently left her husband and moved in with a female friend and my mom and younger sister are accusing them of having a lesbian relationship, and if I don't go, my older sister will be all alone having to face her own husband who she recently left, my mom, and our younger sister with no one there who has her back. So. I don't know whether to go or not.

I have really bad social anxiety and Monday fall quarter starts. I just moved to this city a few months ago with my mom. It has been a while since I have been in school. I am signed up to take two English classes. I just want to scream right now. I am agitated and snapping at my mom. I'm not meaning to. She doesn't understand. She has really bad financial issues and so she is pushing me to like get a job and I just. I don't even know.

If you cant handle 2 English classes at once, which is a big undertaking, cancel one before it begins so you don't lose money on the deal. There is nothing wrong with dipping your toe in the water 1 or 2 classes at a time. I'm sorry that your mother is having financial issues, the economy is a mess. Maybe a class and a part time job just for now ,if you think that will help to diffuse the situation? Just a thought.

How old is said Nephew? This is the exact reason i moved 1800 miles away from anyone blood related! Their problems aren't yours, you can be supportive and care but you cannot carry the weight that comes with their issues. I am so sorry MKAC. You want me to come kidnap you for a girls weekend?

Did someone say girls weekend?

MKAC - that's a lot for anyone to take. I always try to think of after effects before I do anything. How will you feel after the party if you don't go? Guilt? Shame? Regret? If you go? angry? hurt? confused? Can you support your sister? Are you strong enough to do that, or will you be putting yourself in danger?

Pinkshadow...welcome! Are you in HS or college?

Here's the honest couch truth about me right now.

Crushing depression, with sobbing. I am barely making it. Intrusive thoughts and crap. I am supposed to work the shelter tonight but I am not even sure how I'll get thru that. I just want to give up.

((((((wikid))))))
I hate that you are feeling like that. DId anything happen to bring it on, or did it surface on its own?

thanks...
I need to get ready.

See you all tonight,

(((((((((WIKI))))))))))

Hi Susan!