[Screenager]

I normally don't make random posts like this, but I just cant take it, this loneliness, desperation, this deep unhappiness. I feel stuck, like nothing will ever change. I just want to be happy like so many people are, but I just can't be. I'm at a loss. Been crying for the past half hour. I just want relief.

[CantExplain]

((Screenager))

Sounds like depression.
The hardest part of depression is living without hope.

[iGottaBme]

Originally Posted by Screenager

I normally don't make random posts like this, but I just cant take it, this loneliness, desperation, this deep unhappiness. I feel stuck, like nothing will ever change. I just want to be happy like so many people are, but I just can't be. I'm at a loss. Been crying for the past half hour. I just want relief.

I am sorry that you are stuggling.

[Asiablue]

My T told me once that often feeling stuck comes just before big change! You won't feel like this forever. Can you do something healing tonight for yourself?

[Miswimmy1]

(((((hugs))))) I know it can be so hard sometimes! My heart goes out to you.

Screenager

[granite1]

i know it is so hard. first maybe you need to stop compairing you to other people. doing this only makes things a lot worse then they are. feeling stuck is a miserable place to be but it wont last forever

I'm so sorry. If it helps any at all, I have felt similarly in the past. Hold on and please know that people care for you. It will get better.

Originally Posted by Screenager

I normally don't make random posts like this, but I just cant take it, this loneliness, desperation, this deep unhappiness. I feel stuck, like nothing will ever change. I just want to be happy like so many people are, but I just can't be. I'm at a loss. Been crying for the past half hour. I just want relief.

I am sorry you are feeling so down and hopeless. Can you try to do something for yourself that you enjoy? That makes you smile? Even a little bit?

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by Asiablue

My T told me once that often feeling stuck comes just before big change! You won't feel like this forever. Can you do something healing tonight for yourself?

That can be true. Maybe you are pressed up against a barrier and it's about to break?

[ECHOES]

Sometimes 'stuck' is when you know what you want, but Push is as strong as Pull, and it seems like you can't get there. I believe in you. You feel deeply about what you want, and that's a strong foundation to begin with.

[WePow]

sending you very safe hugs
you are not alone

[retro_chic]

I am feeling the exact same way. I won't go into details because this is your thread but today has been a horrible day

[mixedup_emotions]

I can relate so much to this. Feeling stuck and hopeless is a horrible set of emotions. Please try to do something for yourself today, even if you don't feel like it. I know that when I am in the deepest pit of depression, the last thing I want to do is ANYTHING. But it's exactly that, that we must force ourselves to do.

[Screenager]

Thanks for all your kind words. It was nice to see that I'm not alone.

I feel better now. Just venting a bit and crying helped to get things "out of my system" a little, and then sleeping on it always does that too.

I know what I want, in some cases very specifically, but I always find it so hard to get there. Even if it's something simple that I could easily do, I'll find reasons against it and get scared and then just end up staying in my comfort zone. Like meeting new people, going on a trip etc. It always seems easy in my head, but then I just can't get myself to actually go through with it because I'm scared it'll go wrong.
And then there are of course also big things that I just don't have much influence on, like finding a partner. I can't force someone I like to fall in love with me. Or getting stable enough to get a job; that's just something that's out of my reach at this point.

But I'm starting to learn to take more risks and really live for the moment.

And I'm actually pretty good at doing things for myself and trying to do what makes me happy. It's just that I can't enjoy it as much as I used to; but I guess that's depression for you.