[Wren_]

i have a horrible disgusting therapy hangover



feels so yuck

I can't work out what happened either. How do I plan to talk about one thing and instead fall apart talking about anything else instead

Somehow I got so badly upset and reacted badly and don't remember a lot and what I do remember I had no intention of ever talking about and did and now feel exposed, unclean and revolting to go with a mess of other feelings. mostly unsafe

That's therapy unfortunately.

[bamapsych]

so sorry, but maybe you'll feel better soon

(((tigergirl))))

I relate to you, I do this most sessions I kind of get lost

[LadyShadow]

(((((tigergirl)))))

Sometimes thats how it goes, but we have to hang in there as best we can. I hope next session is better for you.

[geezusz]

Originally Posted by tigergirl

i have a horrible disgusting therapy hangover

feels so yuck

I can't work out what happened either. How do I plan to talk about one thing and instead fall apart talking about anything else instead

Somehow I got so badly upset and reacted badly and don't remember a lot and what I do remember I had no intention of ever talking about and did and now feel exposed, unclean and revolting to go with a mess of other feelings. mostly unsafe

This happens every session for me nowadays. I think it is inevitable in long term therapy especially. I always have my own agenda going in, and end up saying a lot of stuff I didnt plan on saying, and also feeling terrible.

I really wish I could control what I say too, but it turns into being resistant and hiding something, if I only talk on what is my agenda.

I sorry you feel this way, tigergirl. I have had that happen. You are NOT unclean! Hang in there.

[sittingatwatersedge]

tigergirl you may have shown yourself, but in a SAFE PLACE and you are NOT unclean or revolting.
Give yourself some time to calm down; what you are feeling is, from what I can tell from PC in general, and if I can use the term, perfectly normal. painful though, yes.
but look here. you went in planning to talk about something but ended up talking about something that needed to come out - that's very brave, and very good work. Now that it's out, it will lose power. hang in there!

[Miswimmy1]

(((((Tigergirl)))))

Originally Posted by tigergirl

i have a horrible disgusting therapy hangover



feels so yuck

I can't work out what happened either. How do I plan to talk about one thing and instead fall apart talking about anything else instead

Somehow I got so badly upset and reacted badly and don't remember a lot and what I do remember I had no intention of ever talking about and did and now feel exposed, unclean and revolting to go with a mess of other feelings. mostly unsafe

please dont feel bad, it happens to us all. ::huggs::

[~EnlightenMe~]

tigergirl

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by tigergirl

i have a horrible disgusting therapy hangover



feels so yuck

I can't work out what happened either. How do I plan to talk about one thing and instead fall apart talking about anything else instead

Somehow I got so badly upset and reacted badly and don't remember a lot and what I do remember I had no intention of ever talking about and did and now feel exposed, unclean and revolting to go with a mess of other feelings. mostly unsafe

My therapy goes better when I deviate from the plan.

[suzzie]

(((((((((tigergirl))))))))))

[Wren_]

thanks everyone ..,. reading what sawe and my kids are cool wrote helped a lot; i needed those reminders i think and to hear it was something that needed to come out

(and not just a bad case of verbal diarrhea - or maybe it was?)

[rainbow_rose]

lots of hugs, tigergirl.

[feralkittymom]

Sounds like your better angels took care of you. It's all good.

[sugahorse1]

You did good work. You took the "road less travelled", which may have been more painful, but you'll find will benefit you drastically in the long run.
Well done

Tigergirl, I wish there was some cure for this therapy hangover, it sucks but we have to remeber things have to get worse before they get better.