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I've been seeing mine for 15 months and i swear i can't think what my T looks like. I can remember her outline and colour of hair and vaguely what she wears but i can't remember her facial features... it's so weird.
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I have the same thing, I told my T that also. I think it's because I make so little eye contact that I forget.
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I had that experience the first few months also. I'd even tell her that and I'd tell her that I couldn't remember what her office looked like.
What we've concluded is that I have not been very grounded in my life. I have a hard time paying attention to details of the physical world. I'm in my head to much - ideas, thoughts, concepts, feelings but little awareness of what's right in front of me. PLUS, I think in session there is so much inner work going on that attentiveness to the therapist is too difficult for people like me. We've almost reached the 2 year mark and NOW I can say confidently that I remember what my T looks like. It took awhile, though. |
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I have the same thing with my Pdoc. Now she has her picture on her website, so I can go there to flesh out the details. But I don't really like the picture on her site.
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I had the same experience for a long time. I finally asked my T if I could take her picture, which helped, though for some reason I felt kind of scared to look at it later.
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It also took me a while to be able to picture my T when I wasn't in session, maybe about 6 months or so. Now I can see her face when I close my eyes. I think it's because we usually have a lot of eye contact.
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Yup...been there too. It took a very long time (like, 3 years) for me to remember what she looks like, and even now it's not consistent.
T's theory is that I have trouble with object constancy. Similarly, she noted the other day when we were talking about my trouble with endings/saying goodbye that she thinks that it's because when I was a kid there was nothing to "carry with me" (meaning I had no "good enough" parenting, etc. to internalize.) Now, I still don't believe there can/will be anything to internalize, thus the trouble with goodbyes, and probably the trouble with hanging on to images of her. Anyway, I think she's right. But it does get better. |
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No. It has been over two years for me and I still can't visualize her. I would not recognize her on the street. I might recognize her voice.
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Same thing here.and i have tons of pictures of my t-- we have pictures of us together, plus she texted some to me since she is so far away. There are seversl on my cell, on my facebook, a couple in frames, and one taped next to my sink. Yet i can barely picture my t. She says i havent learned object permanence yet.
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I can visualize my t and the office that we met in weekly for the past little over a year. I've reached the point where I have internalized that "sacred space" as she calls it, and that's a good thing since we're doing phone sessions now that she's moved. When we were talking earlier this week I closed my eyes and pictured sitting across from her in her office and I felt like we were both actually there. the visualization/internalization thing was certainly not immediate though, I had to work towards that. The whole 'getting out of my head' thing... It's only been in the last couple of months that T has been telling me that she's noticed how calm and embodied I've been. So yes, yes, yes, it does get better.
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She is in my thoughts almost 24/7. I imagine her so much. I'm a very visual person...
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i could sketch him and his office from memory
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Strangely, I don't have a good visual memory, yet I remember most details of T and the various offices pretty well. I do have persistently odd distortions, however, in my memories of sessions in which I was dissociated; mostly deviations in our relative positions and the positions of chairs within the space. I know the reality, yet the visual memory remains distorted. I totally remember the sound of his voice though.
But though we've talked and e-mailed, I haven't seen my T in @ 15 years, and I'd like to see if he's changed much. |
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So how do we learn object permanence if we don't have it yet? I think about my T 24/7 but cannot bring up her image in my mind and she is the only thing that comforts me.
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I am probably the complete opposite. I can remember what t looks like and many of the details in her office. I can remember the sound of her voice, color of her eyes, etc. But for me eye contact keeps me grounded in sessions.
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It's such a weird experience, isn't it? I didn't seem to experience the far away sense, though I've heard that's common. Mine was very much relative position, like the office rotating 90-180 degrees. Feeling strongly he was to my left, but knowing cognitively he was across from me. And what really seems weird is that every time I remember these times, the memory is still distorted. It makes me really believe in the physical basis of memories in the brain.
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I've been seeing mine since Jan., and thought, sure I can visualize her. But when I just tried to, I can vaguely, but she's blurry. And I don't even know for sure what color her eyes are. (Now I have to pay attention to this next time).
I don't always wear my glasses across the room from her, so it does make it harder to see her. But I also see her up close regularly, and I do make eye contact, so that's not the whole reason. I can still see faces in my mind from childhood in such detail. Not being able to visualize people well started for me around my late teens. Interesting question... °°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°° Kindness is a language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see. - Mark Twain
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THIS!! For me, it's like the whole room slides three feet to my left. And in answer to the original question, it was a solid 8-10 months of therapy before I could remember what he looked like in between sessions. Even then I had to make a huge effort to look at him in session and consciously think, okay, he's mostly bald, he has dimples, he has great eyes and laugh lines around them, he . . . Later I could remember thinking about those details, but couldn't pull the pieces together into a picture in my mind for another few months. |
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I'm exactly the same. such a poor visual memory that I can't recall her face from one session to the next.
I wonder why it's so common? Maybe it's the lack of eye contact related to trauma. |
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I remember what she looks like, and could recognise her right away if I saw her in town or whatever... but she's quite expressive and so from session to session sometimes I feel she can look quite different - whether it's her mood, or my perception, I don't know... sometimes different areas of her face seem more prominent/memorable... like one week I'll think how she has a strong jawline, another week I'll think it doesn't look particularly strong...
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I don't know. My guess is that it takes time. I suppose as you begin to trust your therapist more, and if the relationship remains fairly consistent and stable, that it will happen. That's a good question, though. That was just a guess. I think it is different as an adult than as in childhood, though. We know how it is supposed to be (?) intellectually, but not (?) emotionally? It's not an emotion. I wonder? Is it a subconscious 'happening'? How does it all take place? I hope someone can answer this because I am really curious now. ![]()
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I remember ever part of my shrink's face. Her hair, her eyebrows, her hands, her jewelry, her height. Her everything. I have to focus on something while I'm in T.. so I notice the details. I know every inch of her office as well.
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