Welcome to Couch 27

Glad you had fun Healed.

Home at last..... I sure do miss field work, I love the comradery with the men, i really miss that...working around women sucks....lol

I prefer working with women. I get along okay with men, but greatly prefer women.

I work with mostly older Christian women, who complain that the younger women's skirts are too short, and so and so was late, etc.. Its fun... That is why I generally just hide in the kinder room with the kids.. hey are much more fun to be around!!

I get along with men great, women ok for short periods of time.

Granite that sugar is very very high eeek. If you don't mind me asking, are you on insulin or oral meds to help control it? Not sure glasses will be worth it as the eye issue is most likely due to the sugar.
I am sure you already know this but if your sugar is that out of whack it can contribute to anxiety issues and make you feel so miserable in general.
Please take good care of yourself and please don't be offended by my post. I just worry.

Back from group T....Wish I didn't go. *shrug*

I told the guy that I wasn't interested in getting into a debate with him and that I felt like he was trying to put me in a box, to push to get his point across and back me into a corner to prove he's right....and that I had no interest in engaging in that.

It wasn't the primary focus of the session....probably because I wasn't up for pursuing it. I pretty much sat quietly for the rest of the session, waiting for it to be over - and debating on whether or not I was going to make it my last session.

Heading out to meet my comedy class.....

Hello couch!!

I just got back from my departmental holiday party. They had a REAL open bar -- as in, actual liquor -- but I was too shy because I've only been here several months. Still, there was WINE and now I am quite jolly and full of cheer because I am a happy drunk! Which is the best kind of you ask me. Especially fi you ask me after I've been drinking.

I am also likely to tell you how much I love you when I've been drinking. And guess what? I LOVE YOU GUYS.

MUE, I'm sorry your group was so disheartening. But I think you did well to not engage in that guy's game. It's not fun to be put in that position, though, and it's not really something you go to therapy to experience. Plenty of that in regular life hang in there.

I lean slightly in favor of working with men if I have to choose -- I went from previously working with mostly men to now working with mostly women. The sudden compliments on my hair and shoes took me by surprise for a few weeks there. All in all, though, I think a mix is best. It's good to be able to have one group or another whenever you need them.

I don't mind being around women as long as they are not too girly and catty.

Santa Claus is Comin' to Town is on That should help my mood. BergerMiester MeisterBerger....

I had a major breakdown at work today and thank goodness my pastor was on Facebook to talk me through it. (Thank goodness I also have a door on my office!)

Dinner here was Chicken burgers stuffed with spinach and some ricotta cheese and topped with lettuce and avocado.

Chopin - love the hair. I've never been brave enough to dye mine. Or maybe I am just vain about my natural highlights.

Hope everyone else is doing well...

Sconnie, sorry to hear about your breakdown.

I am watching Santa Claus is comin to town right now as well..

thanks Sconnie, I am all over that! Glad your preacher was able to help you and dinner sounds delish! I'm doing leftovers as the W is at her Christmas Party

It's a difficult responsibility when you accept an appointment from his majesty!
As I sing along...

Sconnie...sorry to hear you went thru that at work...

I'm going to bed. Goodnight Couch.

We may need a new couch before the night ends.... just throwing that out there, I'm fixin to chill for awhile and watch a little tv. Night ya'll if I don't come back.

Good night Jersery and Lola..

My boss called me in and said we are winding down operations. Last of March is probably all I can expect to be employed, unless we are bought out or an investor appears on the horizon. I was looking for a job when I got this one. Life is a biotch. My family is bummed. They like it here. So do I.

Sleep tight Jersey and Lola.
After Santa Claus is done, I may go soak in the tub.

i seem to be moving about the world in a semi-dissociative state. it's true when that if you cut your self off from the difficult emotions, you cut your self off from the good ones.

i had some potato chips and and couldn't even taste the salt.

Nice to see you smile, Chopin.

I'm the same. I've never dyed it (well, I did lighten it very slightly as a teenager a couple of times) but I never changed it's natural colour. It's changed itself heaps though, from white blond to dark blond, to brown. It's always had lots of tones in it and I'm too afraid to dye it myself. Even my hairdresser tells me how much she loves all my natural highlights (even though I tend to feel it's quite a flat colour overall). I'd still quite like to try something new...just not brave enough...

Thanks, but if I knew what was going to happen in my session today, I would not have been smiling, I would have been hiding. I can't decide if T is too personally involved in my case, is DID, or just plain bat-s**t crazy.

I can't even process it at this point. I talked to H about it over dinner and he is the most logical person I know. I read him the email I sent her after my session and everything. He kinda saw what she was trying to do, but said he simply couldn't work with her.

I sat down in the waiting room and she came around the corner and simply said my name. Loudly. She wouldn't look at me as I entered her office and ignored me for a full minute before sitting down in her chair. This conversation commenced:

T: So?
Me: So...what?
T: *Silently glares at me.*
Me: Are you referring to the email?
T: Yes. How do you feel about it today?
Me: I don't care.

She exploded: "Well. Fine then. That's your choice. If you don't care about it anymore, there's certainly nothing I can do about it."

I'm like . One, because I thought the next thing out of her mouth was going to be, "get out...I'm done with you," and I still think that might have been the next thing out of her mouth if I didn't actually finish my "I don't care" sentence, which she didn't let me finish. Two, because I'd never seen her look like this before; eyes on fire, vein in her forehead popping out, red in the face, and breaking out in splotches on her neck and upper chest. Three, because I wasn't certain what she was actually angry about.

Before the end of session, T scolded me about what she was angry about (excuse me, "frustrated with"), I cried like a baby, T pushed me to be in a place I just can't be in yet, I alternately (verbally) beat myself up and stood up for myself, T had tears in her eyes, etc...the multiple personalities went on.

Then the end of the session, she hugged me tight and told me she loved me. I apologized for disappointing her; she insisted I didn't and told me no matter what "disagreements" (then she changed to "mishaps") we have, our relationship is okay and will not change.

Someone please tell me I'm not completely crazy. She said things today that had merit and some things I thought was too soon to say, but I think she lost her damn mind. What the f**k happened?!!!

Chopin.. I don't know if I missed an earlier post or not.. Was she upset about something you sent her in an e-mail before your session? Something like that would probably push me over the edge, I would be crying like a little baby. Sorry your session went the way it did.

I emailed the night after my last session when I was in a bad place. My H said it could have been interpreted as somewhat critical of T. My problem with her was that I asked her for an extra session in the email and she told me that she didn't handle appointment scheduling by email, that I should have just called the office. Thing is, she and I have been handling appointments via email for months. I called her out on it later. She wouldn't admit I was right.