Couch 28

Good morning, couch peeps.....

I no longer feel welcome on the couch.....cuz of all this talk about HP and LOR and such.....I live under a rock and have never seen these movies. Such an outcast. Bahahaha. Oh..AND..I liked Twilight and will be getting the final movie when the DVD comes out. Am I a loser now?

(((( YAWN ))))

I really wish I could've gotten more than 3 hours sleep last night....I have a looooong day ahead with work and then going to my first open mic night with my comedy group. Wish me luck!

Phantom Tollbooth....loved it. Need to re-read that one.

I have read LotR, not a huge fan. I liked Narnia, but again not huge. I haven't read Potter. I did like Gormenghast though, and of course I loved Star Wars.
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Twilight has no appeal to me as I detest love stories.

Home alone for the first time in a long time. I need to wrap, and clean a bit. Thinking of making some soup too. RR's soup made me hungry, I can always puree a bit for myself. Really fighting the urge to turn the news on. Struggling with that a lot.

Morning,

Still in a lot of pain from my back. Had to call out of work today. Last thing in the world I wanted to do. Need to go to the doctor to get some pain relief and make sure it isn't more serious.

Still need to start a 20 page paper in this condition. Freaking out!

Good morning couch,
I will join the group that has not read HP. Or Twilight. I have no desire to read about vampires.

They are predicting heavy snow here later this week.... white Christmas is nice. Shoveling lots of snow before I got to work not so much. This is when I wish I owned a hovercraft!

Morning all. I have never read Phantom Tollbooth. I guess I need to go find that.

I am going to have to buckle down and get tons of research and writing done in the next few weeks. Hope everyone has a happy and productive Monday.

Has anyone heard from Granite? It has been awhile, and I know Mondays are generally especially hard for her.

I am missing Granite too...

She is away for a little bit. Keep thinking of her though, she could use some happy thoughts.

The news won out.

Icy rain...I really wish it was snow. I want a white Christmas.

I've never had a white Christmas. Wrong hemisphere. Though it's quite nice to have it mid summer, beautiful sunny days, lots of people out at the beach, and so on. Still, I wouldn't mind trying a white Christmas just once (and snow is better than icy rain)!

Morning all, looks like my Christmas will be cold..... better then the years I hang lights in my shorts and a tank top. Hope everyone has a good day! I am going to go see The Hobbit tonight , I am so excited.

Good morning, everyone. I've had a busy weekend and today will be busy as well. I'm currently sitting at the group home waiting for carpet cleaners to arrive. I hope they know what they are supposed to clean because I don't.

I wanted to let everybody know I'm going to curtail my use of PC during my time at work. I'm a bit addicted to it and I love so many people here. I know that my work will suffer if I log in on a regular basis at work. It was a distraction when I was QP before (in the first 4 months I was active on here) that kept me from doing what I needed to do. I am also going to be busy at night this week, but I do want to respond to posts on my last thread to help me process before Thursday.

Apparently I'm feeling like I'm losing control of things. I had a dream last night that my ex-GF (who I've only seen 5 times this year) was invited to a GNO with mutual acquaintances and I wasn't invited. This bent me out of shape so much that I decided that she was going to pay attention to me by never leaving her side no matter what she did. I took great pleasure in annoying her. Then I found out my boss was hiring someone from outside to manage the four program directors (yes, I'm one of those too...my new position has quite a bit of power). I decided that I was the best for the job and confronted my boss about it in a public meeting with all the candidates for the job. He told me I was not the best choice, so that's why I wasn't being considered. So I took a bowl of mashed potatoes from the table and smashed them with all my strength in his face. He almost fell over. Then I took a cream pie and smashed that in his face also. Then I woke up.

I wish everyone a great day. See you later!!

LC - hope you enjoy the movie.

I hope the week goes well for the coucharinos.

((((Chopin))) I agree that you should do what you feel is best as it pertains to cutting down on here during work as it can be distracting if you always sign on. Hugs.

Lola enjoy the movie.
Hugs Wiki
Thinking of you Granite.

Hello everyone else. (Apt, SD, CE, MKAC, MUE, CL, Murry, TBlue . Oh for the love of beans-hello Everone. There)

I'm also chilling out from spending time on PC for now. Hugs and love to all the couch peeps.

Chopin, I know that addiction all too well! I'll miss your posts, but completely understand that work is what pays the bills.

Can I just say that I love my T? He never fails me. He gives me hope. We had a long talk today about when it's appropriate to call him between sessions (I lean toward never and he leans toward whenever I feel it would help). I don't like to come anywhere near his (or anyone's) boundaries. Boundaries are scary. I don't want to become that client that every therapist complains to their colleagues about.

Because I fear that more than anything, he took a different tack today. He told me that calling him before things get too bad is actually doing him a favor, since it's easier to sort things out when they first start instead of when they get entrenched and complicated. Good work, T. Now, I'll feel guilty if I don't call. I hate feeling guilty (although I'm pretty used to it), so I'll probably call. He knows exactly what button to push to get me to change.

I don't see him now until Jan 3 and I was leaving, he said "have a great holiday. I'll talk to you." Bratface.

That's excellent, critterlady

However, I'll see your "I love my T" and raise you a "therapy works". I woke up the some days ago and was not worthless. I mean, I knew I wasn't. I know that none of you had been walking around thinking "yah, that apt chick is utterly devoid of worth" but me, I've always known that I was. Always. Despite knowing enough about symbolic logic to recognise the inherent untruth in the conclusion "all humans have worth AND apt is a human BUT apt has no worth" - I just knew I was the exception. But a little more than a week ago I woke up and that was no longer true. My calm collected T pretty nearly uncorked the champagne when I told him. That was pretty cool, too.

I haven't wanted to write about that here because so many people are struggling, but then, good news can be rather cheering, as witness my being all cheered up by critterlady's <3 T post

That's awesome, Apt. I'm so happy for you, that you're seeing for yourself what I've (and I daresay all the couch denizens have) seen about you already.

I suspect my T will jump up and down if I do actually call him during the holiday break. I sort of have to now.

I really thought I was the only exception. hmmmm.

I hate calling the t. I have an appointment with that trauma woman tomorrow, and I can't figure out what time it is at (my life has been a bit crazy and I haven't seen her since before thanksgiving). I know I need to call and ask for a time confirmation, but I keep chickening out. I feel really stupid, and I keep thinking that I will remember the time by osmosis, or something like that.

Apt, I had a similar revelation in my life a while back. I realized at some point, while talking to my husband, that most people in my life now DON'T think about killing me. I said out loud to my husband, "you really don't think about killing me, do you?" He was horrified. I told my T this story and his face was like . There was no champagne involved. LOL. Apparently, no one (including me) understood the extent to which I believed that people around me thought about that at least sometimes. I grew up with the knowledge that my parents thought about it sometimes. Heck, my mom openly told me she thought about it. So. Yeah. Anyway, my point was that Apt is right; therapy works.

It doesn't help that I phoned her in crisis the week after Thanksgiving and spoke with her briefly on the phone. I feel so stupid.

Pick up the phone, wiki. Your life has been a LOT crazy. Forgetting an appointment time is not a sign of stupidity.
Also, there are no exceptions. I was the last one.

((mkac))

Wiki, you are not stupid. You are so far from stupid, you can't even see stupid from where you are.

We all have moments where we wonder what we were thinking. And, at least for me, most of those moments are when I'm not thinking, I'm feeling. And T tells me that feeling is good. And hope is good. And trying to make a connection out of hope is good.

That is not stupid, you were in crisis. If I had a dollar for every time I did something stupid, I'd be a millionaire....

I had a realization on the way to work this morning and although it's going to sound kinda dumb.... it made me feel better.

No matter what dumb things I do or say , nothing bad is going to happen to me. I may make someone mad , in which case I will apologize , but ultimately I need to stop punishing myself for everything as though I committed murder.

MKAC, that is awful.... I am glad you finally see people don't want to kill you. (((((((hug))))))))

Critter, I get the feelings part... I wish I could feel and think at the same time.

Sitting in the vets office with my puppy... I knew he ate something that he shouldn't have and was trying hard to get it up... Well on the way to the vets it got it all up.. Including wheel from a hot wheel size tractor,2 Hershey kisses foils, and... Well, something a wee bit embarrassing!! Glad he got it all out before we got to the vet. Now that we are here they're just gonna look him offer since we were literally 2 mins from the office when he got it all.

I swear, of it's not me, the kids, it is the dog I am taking to the dr!! Ahhhh!

MKAC... I has a similar revelation this weekend.. About how I thought one way and I am not now, no longer due to t!! It has only taken a year, but I can say it is really working now!!

I hope the puppy feels better! Isn't it amazing what they can get into? Or what they can get into themselves.

One of my cats has developed a fondness for grape stems. He'll go into the trash (even opening the pantry door all by himself to do it) and pull out grape stems. He'll dig for them if he has to. Once he finds one, he trots off with it in his mouth like it's a trophy. Then he bats it down the stairs (he thinks it's funny to watch it bounce) until I retrieve it (which he also thinks is funny).