aloneness

I am moving forward in therapy each day.
But sometimes I dont feel my T is with me really. Maybe that is the nature of therapy. This is my art showing what I feel today.

http://g.omnisketch.com/displayimage...268&fullsize=1

Wow - that is a very powerful image!!

Wow WePow; that painting is just amazing. It is so strong and powerful. Is the image in the middle depicting you and your aloneness surrounded by the darkness? Correct me if I am wrong

WePow, good to hear from you! I am sorry that your T doesn't seem to be there for you. Your image is quite powerful and beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing it.

You are right,. I feel very isolated from T. But I also know I have worth. So I am trying to stay positive.

(((( WePow ))))

You are certainly not alone with these feelings.

Even with the cruddy feelings of being isolated from T, your recognition of your worth is a great example of your growth

WePow.... thanks so much for sharing your art... sometimes when I feel isolated I wonder did my T move away from me or did I move away from T....

thats beautiful.

((((((((((((WePow)))))))))))))))
so much emotion coming through!!!!!!!

sending safe hugs

WePow, this has happened to you before and in the past you have realized that there was an issue for you standing between you two.

Beautiful work!

WePow you did that ?!?!?!?! I am in awe!!!

it ... coruscates.

Wow. you're very talented. I wish you could know what you gave me today.

WePow, what I notice is that the shape that represents you in the middle of your painting is so bright and full of light and hope in the darkness.
I am in awe of your art work, it is absolutely beautiful will you show T and tell t how you feel?

Thank you so much guys :-) Your encouragement means a lot to me.
I did show T but he said nothing. I won't see T again u til next Tue.
It hurts to feel like I am worthless in the eyes of my T. I know I am not. But when he asks me how I am doing in email after one of the most intense sessions ever... and I pour out my heart in reply... and he doesn't say a single word back about what I said... then doesn't even mention it in therapy... but does mention hanging out with his friends and chilling... IDK. It hurt too much. But it is life. What should I expect from a paid stranger I supose.
I know better than to think I matter when not face to face. My bad.

Anyway, I did this artwork pushing through all those doubts. Not letting the response of others in my life dictate how I feel about my self worth.
So I know inside I am a jewel. I just need to not forget that.

WePow, are you going to share this ^ with your T? I just know that you 2 can work through this. He probably has no idea what you were thinking or feeling.

You are truly a jewel WePow. Beautiful image.

T's are just STUPID sometimes. Grrrr.

I think you should tell t that he didn't hear you, he totally missed how important your email was and what you had to say.
I am sure t's have their bad days WePow but you deserved to be heard and understood. Your artwok needs to be seen by t and if he doesn't SEE it arghhhhhh...he is stupid (sorry)