[tinyrabbit]

Did you look all around your T's room when you went, or have you noticed things gradually?

I've recently started sitting on the floor, but before that I sat in a chair with a window by it. It took me 10 weeks to notice the window. I find this kind of odd now I've spotted it as it was RIGHT THERE.

[stopdog]

I can't remember the office from week to week. I do remember finally seeing a picture on the wall and being surprised about it since it is large and brightly colored and I did not see it for over a year. I no longer remember what it actually looks like, just that the therapist was surprised at my surprise.

[sittingatwatersedge]

Originally Posted by stopdog

I do remember finally seeing a picture on the wall and being surprised about it since it is large and brightly colored and I did not see it for over a year. I no longer remember what it actually looks like, just that the therapist was surprised at my surprise.

I thought I was the only one.

Quick - what color is the carpet or rug in T's office? I couldn't answer, the first time I thought about it (and you'd think I could, I look at it enough).

[tinyrabbit]

The carpet is kind of beigey white, but I have just seen a photo...

There's this picture on the wall that has become some kind of weird vehicle for my feelings - I have been known to savagely criticise it when I'm angry. I don't actually mind it.

But I once drew my T a cartoon strip to illustrate my annoyance with him, so I'm clearly a bit odd.

[murray]

It's odd...I tend to notice every little change that happens in T's office as I seem to be very aware of the environment there. However, the one time I ran into T outside of session I didn't recognize him at first...have no idea what he really looks like but if the lamp is moved a tiny bit I notice...go figure

[healed84]

It really did take me awhile to really take notice all of the small details in T's room. Now, I notice everything. I generally notice if something is new or out of place.

[stopdog]

Originally Posted by tinyrabbit

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But I once drew my T a cartoon strip to illustrate my annoyance with him, so I'm clearly a bit odd.

Not that odd I don't expect. I have done a power point presentation, written short stories and performed a finger puppet skit to try and communicate with the woman.

[stopdog]

Originally Posted by sittingatwatersedge

I thought I was the only one.

Quick - what color is the carpet or rug in T's office? I couldn't answer, the first time I thought about it (and you'd think I could, I look at it enough).

Not a clue. And I do look at it too or the wall. Which I think is blank. But would not bet anything I was unwilling to lose on it.

[rainbow8]

My T's office is very crowded with "stuff": hers from vacations around the world, things clients give her (like my collage and stuffed bear), and other objects. It's hard to notice everything! I don't know what color the carpet is!!

I notice the photographs she took, which are on the wall, and I noticed that last time she replaced the painting (she painted it) with another of her paintings. I look at her books when I'm in the room alone sometimes. She also has rocks that I notice, and a doll she made. But I'm sure there's a lot I don't notice. After 3 years, for example, I realized she sits on a chair that's striped but I forgot the colors! The couch is a pretty light toffee colored. There was a postcard on the wall and I asked if it was new. No, she said. It was there for about 6 months!

[tinyrabbit]

It took me ages to notice that there's a blanket as well. Which is annoying as I kept wishing he had a blanket so I could wrap up in it. It has come as a massive relief to me that I don't have to fold the blanket back up and put it away, put cushions back etc, as my T puts everything back for the next person. Due to some stuff in my childhood, it would be very stressful if I had to worry about putting back things I'd moved. I think I may have asked for permission to unfold the blanket, now I think of it.

I like the teal/turquoise colour of the walls, I find it really calming. Everything else is in neutral colours.

There's nothing personal in the room, ie references to T's life or other clients, which I prefer. He has some art stuff, and some stuffed toys which I think must be for play therapy. I would like to go and look at them, and maybe take one out to have with me during the session, but haven't worked up to that yet.

As to my T, he looks different every time I see him. I finally figured out he looks younger or older depending on how young or old I am feeling in relation to him on that day.

I have noticed things gradually. It took me awhile to register that he has a blue carpet, and what color the sofas actually are (I knew right away that they are a soft mcirofiber fabric though). I took note of the photographs and art he has on the walls right away, though. Something I gave to him is hung on the wall, so I wonder (out of simple curiosity) if any of the other things are from patients, too.

Little story, I was recently drawing a blank on what to say so in desperation to fill the silence, I made the mistake of commenting on some figurines in a cabinet that I truly had never looked at before (not even not noticed, I never physically walked to the cabinet to see them until that day). It turned into this big discussion of me insisting that the figurines didn't mean anything to me and him kind of pushing me to see some significance in them and that must lead to some insight FYI Therapists, not everything has to have some deep, grand meaning

[~EnlightenMe~]

I remember the elevator leading up to his floor, it is an older building and I love it. I get to walk through a historic neighborhood to get there. I remember that his office has his desk and his computer sitting on it. He has pictures on the wall and a window. No clue as to the color of the rug. He has a shelf on the wall with things on it, he pointed this out to me when we were talking about things. I can kind of envision him, but I'm kind of out of it right now.

As far as my xT goes, I remember that he had a farm behind his office and I could hear various farm animals. I remember a vision that I had of opening his back door to the outside and throwing his timer out because I hated it. I remember his long hall, that I near the end (and possibly before) thought of as the green mile. I remember the door that I got kicked out of and told never to return. xT was just a ghost, none of that was real.

[QuietCat]

I have T's office pretty memorized. Right down to all the books on the wall of shelves. I no longer point out different titles to T and ask him about them or mentIon whIch ones I lIke to focus on durIng sessIons because last time I did that the book mysteriously was gone from the shelf next session. I still don't know what happened to it.

[photostotake]

I think I have T's office memorized. I notice every little thing and when something has changed. Keep telling him he needs artwork or photographs on his wall and that I'd be happy to supply some rather than just his many diplomas. He said he might take me up on that offer one of these days (I'm a photographer and he has seen quite a bit of my work already).

[retro_chic]

I have no idea what colour the carpet is... possibly grey of some sort? I have been seeing my T (and my previous T) at this practice for two years so I should remember. I can clearly remember the couch though. It is dark brown leather with purple and lime green cushions on it. I try and look at my T as much as possible so I can hold on to her image until next session. Because of this, I can always remember what she wears in great detail.

[likelife]

Originally Posted by tinyrabbit

But I once drew my T a cartoon strip to illustrate my annoyance with him, so I'm clearly a bit odd.

I think that's fantastic! What a great way to express yourself.

[likelife]

Originally Posted by stopdog

Not that odd I don't expect. I have done a power point presentation, written short stories and performed a finger puppet skit to try and communicate with the woman.

Also fantastically creative!

[refika]

I remember every tiny detail of my T's office but I couldn't tell you what color shirt T wore today.

One day I went in and I noticed the large pillow T kept by their chair was different. I asked T if that was a different pillow and they said it was, then asked why I was asking. LOL Just wanted to make sure I wasn't seeing things...

The funniest time was when I went to grab a pillow to hug, and I took one off the couch next to me. T pointed to the one that was on the floor next to the couch and asked why didn't I use that one. For some reason, I didn't like that one. The next session, I was in T's office before they came in and saw the same pillow (that was on the floor next to the couch, that T wanted me to use), on T's chair. It was the pillow T uses to sit on sometimes!!! ROFL I KNEW there was a reason I didn't use that pillow.

[likelife]

I spend so much time not looking at my T that I have a lot of her room pretty well memorized. Or so I think. Mostly I stare at her books or out the window. I do notice when things change.

Whenever I imagine talking with T, it's always in her office, sitting in her red chair. I can't seem to place her in any other context.

[likelife]

Originally Posted by refika

The next session, I was in T's office before they came in and saw the same pillow (that was on the floor next to the couch, that T wanted me to use), on T's chair. It was the pillow T uses to sit on sometimes!!! ROFL I KNEW there was a reason I didn't use that pillow.

Ha! That's hilarious. I wish that T's pillows were made out of a less porous material. Okay, I know that all materials are porous, but her couch is pretty old and the pillows seem kind of nasty to me. I would never dream of hugging one. There's often pet hair on the couch and people hair too, which definitely grosses me out. Something about the plush fabric seems to attract everything.

[sittingatwatersedge]

Originally Posted by stopdog

.... I have done a power point presentation, .... to try and communicate with the woman.

you did that?! LOL I threatened, but you did it - great going!

[Dreamy01]

For a very long time I hardly noticed anything in my first t's office even though it was full of stuff including a bookcase and highly decorated in cards and pictures. I only saw the small window and two chairs. As time went on I began to notice a bit more but it wasn't until I went back for a visit some years later that I took in the details. I think my mind was so full of trauma for the longest time that it wasn't possible to see anything else. Interestingly, on my visit the room felt different to me too - all the anguish and misery I'd suffered there had gone. I just saw a room, nothing more. It was odd.

[Perna]

Yeah, I suddenly noticed some elephant sculptures/knick-knacks as I was leaving one day, right by the door in the bookcase there, and had to write a poem about them

[Nelliecat]

There's not that much to notice in t's room. It's shared so there's nothing personal in there. I do notice if things change and i wish she had more i could look at, books, pictures etc. I need distractions so as not to focus on the hard stuff

[Anne2.0]

There are two or three shelves in my T's office-- which is not his personal office, but furnished by the practice he works for. They have small pieces of art, knick knacks. The other day I said I wondered what those shelves would look like after all the stuff on them was knocked onto the floor. He said he wondered that too.