Canceled sessions

I really feel despondent right now. About a month ago I decided to join a group for women who went through csa. The idea of a group is not something that I am comfortable with. So many things about it terrify me, but I got a little courage and thought that maybe it would be good for me. My problem now is that I still haven't had my first session. Last week was supposed to be my first time going, but the group T had to cancel for an emergency. Now this week she had to cancel again due to illness. I really do get that things happen, and I am sure that it's just been a bad couple of weeks for her, and that this is not the norm, but I'm starting to think that this is a sign. Maybe this isn't something that I should do right now. It took so much for me to build myself up to go last week, and then again this week, I just don't know if it's worth the stress. Should I try to make it to at least one meeting before I make a decision? I know if I go I am going to have to try not to be overly cautious because of the way it has started for me.

Absolutely you should go. You may really like it or you may hate it but that's a call you can only make having actually been there.

I think you are very brave, btw

I'll start a club with you, trdlblue. My T canceled on me the past two weeks too.

I do think it would be good to try at least one (if not three) sessions before making a decision about the group. It seems incredibly brave to consider it in the first place.

I got so much out of my CSA group, it was an amazing source of healing for me. I'd encourage you to at least give it a try. I was super nervous at my first meeting, but it was all very much worth it in the long run.

I'm sorry that you have been canceled on the last two weeks as well. It's not fun, and I am finding that I don't deal the best with it.

I am going to try to work myself up again to go next week, but it already seems like such a task for me.

Being canceled on twice would make me uncomfortable. Probably another one of those GD growth opportunities, and something to be learned, but lousy. I hope you are feeling better about it soon.