Should I see T again?

I saw a new t back in March, and I haven't seen her since. Mainly b/c I forgot about my appt, then rescheduled to this saturday, but now we're going away, so I rescheduled for May 4th. I'm not really sure I should even go. Everything is pretty much in check. I'm having some marital issues, but they only last a couple hours at a time, until my husband calms down, from the rages he gets in. There's nothing I can really do about that, it's him that needs to work on that. We put the whole baby thing on hold, which kinda bummed me out, but I'm not depressed about it. It'll happen eventually. I'm kinda glad we put it on hold, b/c I want my husband to work on his rage issues, b/c there's no sense in having a kid if you're just going to yell at it and possibly do worse things to it. Cause I know kids can be damn trying at some points. I was. There's not much sense in marriage counseling either b/c we don't really fight. He just gets mad about something stupid, yells at me, I yell back, then we sit in silence for a few hours, and then everything is ok. It doesn't happen often. Work is going fine. Pretty low stress job.

Since I've went back on my meds, I've felt fine. Anxiety and obsessive thoughts have went away, which is what i was supposed to work on in therapy. So I guess I don't see the point in going. I just feel weird not going back and only seeing a t one time. Like, by seeing her 1 time i've been entered in this contact that i need to see her for years or something like i've seen all the rest of my t's. I'm pretty sure it will be ok though.

Well just my thought if you are not sure if you should go back then you probably should. Therapy you don't need is better than no therapy that you do need.

Um... that sounds like a fight to me...
And even if it isn't, you can go to counselling without fighting.

The best time to go to T is when you're stable. That's when they see the real you and not an upswing or down swing. You're able to give your all and build trust so when things do hit the fan the t can help you.

If you haven't been going long/regularly and don't want to go now, I would not go to a seemingly random appointment that has no purpose.

Yeah. I'm not going to go. I'm gonna cancel the appt.

I know for me it took a while for me to get the courage to make the first appt....

Did you make the original appt on a whim? If not, then you probably need to keep going. IMO, if your H won't go for counseling himself or to MC with you then you could go to counseling yourself and work on boundaries to learn how to deal with your H's rage issues. It might be his issue but you are impacted by it.

Regarding your signature bars...

I am amused and perhaps a little alarmed the way you track "giving up smoking" and "marriage" in the same way.

wtf is wrong with keeping track of 2 big accomplishments in my life. I like to know how I'm doing on them. I have hardly any memory to keep up with things, and I'm proud of these accomplishments and would like to share.

I don't understand why you had to put this in the damn post, you could've just written it on my profile. This was not the place to do it.

I actually did make it on a whim. I was seeing my pdoc, and thought I should see someone, cause I was having some bad anxiety. So I figured go for it.

I've been in and out of therapy for the past 13 years, so I know what to do, I just need to apply what I know. I did IOP in total 10 weeks i think, so it's not like I don't know the material. :P

I see that I have hurt you and I am very sorry about that.
It was never my intention. I'm just a clumsy goof.

I'm sorry you got yelled at, you are not a clumsy goof. Speaking of being married and giving up smoking, I was able to use my old joke about "it's not that I've stopped smoking - I only smoke after sex" when I got caught in the thunderstorms last week and shared a nook with a ssmoker who offered to exit.

From my understanding, sometimes when one is feeling more stable, one can work on things deeper in therapy rather than just sort of putting out brush fires. So just feeling like the meds are working on a specific thing like anxiety, does not necessarily preclude therapy being useful in other areas, like anger or fighting, or even the one that is more stable with the drugs. Some therapists I have read about consider the stabilization just the beginning.