[Bloem]

I told my T that she meant a lot to me, and that she 'crawled' under my skin. And that how intense my process also seems to be that she not should be afraid.
because the problems i had where always were there, she only did not know. I started to trust her finally after three years....and now she knows how it is, she sees who I really am.
I told her how impossible it sometimes may seem, we already achieved that she could come close to me, and that is a special thing in itself.

I showed her the messages I've posted here on the forum, I do not know why? I had the urge but whether it is good? I told her that i trust her, that she will not read my posts here....because she respects me.....

but now I think? what did i do?..... I'm a bit manic.....and now she can read all my posts if she wants.

would she do that?

[mazing]

I would think they not read anything posted here unless severely worried about your safety, and even then would hope that my therapist would talk about it first.

If you do trust her I wouldn't worry too much. But maybe talk about it in your next session? Set up some specific guidelines and ask her directly if there are any circumstances where she would look at your posts. You can then work it out together.

[unaluna]

I showed my t how to log on - I really think it is more interesting for us than it is for them. It is more novel for us, it's just more work for them, work that accomplishes nothing?

[stopdog]

I don't think it matters if a therapist reads here or not. I don't think most of them do. I think most of them should. I doubt the therapist would check up on someone or even remember the online name. I don't think they care about it that much. It is no big deal to them what a client writes on here.

[0w6c379]

Bloem: It's hard to know for sure if she'd ever come back to read your posts but if you asked her to respect your privacy and not read them wouldn't she do that for you? I guess you have to trust her until/or if she ever gives you reason to doubt.

Originally Posted by hankster

I showed my t how to log on - I really think it is more interesting for us than it is for them. It is more novel for us, it's just more work for them, work that accomplishes nothing?

Hankster why do you propose that a T's work here on PC "accomplishes nothing"? How would anyone know something like that? (I just say this as a thought not accusatory) I would beg to differ on that point. I've read some very worthwhile posts and threads here on PC. I'm sure some insights came from T's who are very knowledgeable in their field. Insights, the cost of which, far exceed the equivalent of seeing a therapist for months or maybe even years. I've seen an outpouring of comfort offered to people by both the general public and therapists. I don't know about you, but I've been on the receiving line of such comfort and it has helped me enormously. I don't find PC to be a replacement for T or the interaction offered within a T session. I do find PC is a great place to raise questions that come up with T. I've seen so many varied interpretations of what someone says or writes here about a problem or statement that it definitely causes me to question "where did they get that from?" For myself, I know that I'm seeing things one way through the viewfinder but someone else here on PC points out a different view. It is something that I think about long after reading it in a post. Our histories, habits and mind processes hold us back from instant change. I would have to say that I am sorry to anyone who may have offered me great advice here which I did not "take". However, I suggest that perhaps the thoughts you related did not go to waste. They may have been absorbed by another reader (a lurker as the PC crowd would call them). Or, perhaps, I myself would walk away from the computer and think about what someone said. Maybe I'd come back later to reread something again (if I'm lucky enough to find it ). I find PC to be a wonderful friend for me at 3:00 am in the morning when there's no one to call and I can't sleep. I'm sure I'm not the only one. Well, I guess I've really gone off track here and I apologize for that.

What was the topic? Oh yeah, about telling T she means a lot to you. I think that is something worth saying regardless of how they respond to you. I think that it is a beautiful compliment and a testament to the person you believe they are inside. I know we pay our T's for their time, intellect and attention but when they affect us so deeply, why hold back? Sharing the love can't be a bad thing can it? This world has gotten so cold and rotten, it pleases me to hear that you would say this to your T (I said it too once).

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by Bloem

I told my T

but now I think? what did i do?..... I'm a bit manic.....and now she can read all my posts if she wants.

would she do that?

That would be a breach of trust and no good T would do that.

[Bloem]

Thanks for the responses. My t sent me a message this morning and told me not to worry. She respects my privacy and will not look, only if I ask her to look.

She was very happy to hear that she means a lot to me, i am glad that i told her.

Liefs,
Bloem

[WikidPissah]

Bloem...I think t's have better things to do with their free time then read here. Your safe I think!

[unaluna]

Originally Posted by Michelle25

Hankster why do you propose that a T's work here on PC "accomplishes nothing"? How would anyone know something like that? (I just say this as a thought not accusatory) I would beg to differ on that point. I've read some very worthwhile posts and threads here on PC. I'm sure some insights came from T's who are very knowledgeable in their field.

You're right, michelle. It might accomplish something. but to me, it's like throwing some seeds out the car window as you drive by a field, vs planting and tending that field. I just saw ts as being more likely to be tenders rather than indiscriminate sowers. That they would put their time to that which would be more likely to return a tangible reward. I think it's healthier, not necessarily to expect something back, but to know your value to the world. That's what I struggle with. Trying to find a happy medium between giving everything away, and hoarding.