[MASIMO]

My therapist has been on vacation for three weeks, and I wont see him for another two.
I have been seeing his partner, three times now. Yesterday after our session, I walked past my T office, the door was open, his dog was running around as his partner is taking care of him. I looked into his office, the empty chair just stood out and made me feel very sad. I could not feel his presence there. He is gone. I felt so alone all of a sudden.
Became tearful as I walked back to my car. I miss him so much.

He emailed me once, and sent some photos. I couldn't resist myself, I sent him an email this morning. Describing seeing the empty chair, how his dog missed him, how I shed a few tears, and some heartstrings were pulled. I feel kind of guilty, but I don't think he will mind. It was a very strange feeling, like he had died or something. Maybe it's because I feel so detached from him right now....almost like a death. He will be back in two weeks.
I have to pull up my bootstraps and start acting like an independent person...aaarrrggghh.

[jkbob]

I was really mad at my T for going on vacation. Actually I missed a week because I went on vacation (and that was okay of course) then she missed 2 weeks and then when I went back (3 weeks later) I was 1/2 hour late. Nothing like acting out because of missing her and screwing myself in the process

[Asiablue]

As you described that Masimo i felt my heartstrings pull.

[Perna]

There's nothing bad or wrong about missing someone you are working closely with who is away! You'd have a worse problem if you did not.

[Sabra]

Masimo,

One thing my therapist did when she was going to be gone more than a week......... she asked if I wanted to take something from her office. I used it as a transitional object until I saw her again. I would take a stuffed animal or a sparkly wand. It did help.

Sabra

[MASIMO]

I emailed t about the empty chair, he has not responded.
I have one more session next week with his partner, so I will see the empty
Chair one more time. I will have to wait another week to actually see him although he is back in the
Country this Thursday so he might contact me .
I always go through this phase of mixed emotions when he gets close to returning.
I become tearful, then I Feel angry childish abandonment. Then guilt...gee doesn't the guy deserve a vacation. Even though It's five weeks of endurance, sadness, obsession, Tears,anger. Loneliness, lack of safety, Migraine!!!! There...Got that out, thank you.