Couch 58 A place to sit and......

Think I've found the right employment agency for me. It's a family owned business and staff very friendly and chatty. In fact i wasted a lot of time talking with the manager about jazz and the Beatles. They will actively go out and network for you, depending on your disability. I hadn't realised all the resources I could access before. Stupid pride. The other agency would have given me a list of jobs and said "Off you go" This agency actually looks at what the client wants and will work with them to help them achieve this.

How can I forgive myself for making a mistake if my boss won't forgive me?

((( CE )))

Ouch. That's a tough one, CE. I hope you're able to work towards separating your feelings from your boss' feelings.

I used to have an awful boss who was very abusive towards me. I don't think I ever recovered from it, and I believe it has impacted me greatly when it comes to seeking full time work. I need to practice what I preach.

Good morning, couch peeps!

Woke up with a migraine this morning. Surprise, surprise. I have about a half hour to nurse it before I get showered and leave for my assignment. I hate feeling this way before work.

My assignment this morning is at a mental health facility. I'm a little nervous about it. The agency stressed how I need to stay behind the RN's desk when I'm not interpreting and if the patient wants to communicate with other patients, I can only provide that service if a hospital staff member is present. This should be quite an experience.

I see T today a couple hours after my assignment is done. We are supposed to get back to working on past trauma stuff today....Not sure how I feel about that. I'm so stressed about my current life situation and the fact that my daughter is leaving for her trip today...I'm not sure I can handle unearthing old trauma feelings on top of that. But there's never really going to be a "good" time. *sigh*

Good Luck MUE....your gonna do fine ((((MUE))))
Morning all, W and I are headed back to the old house today and closing tomorrow. Hope you all have a great day. I'm missing a bunch of people from the couch , glad some are still posting. Saw this on FB ad thought of y'all.

I'm sorry I was harsh Granite.

Morning all...
I had an awful night. Ick. Nightmares.
In a bit of pain today too...must be anxiety. Super Ick.

MUE - I hope your daughter has an incredible time. Please try to distract yourself while she's gone. And remember that she's with people who love her and will protect her.

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Morning couch. I am just sitting at K's bored to death while she is napping. Oh well, it is easy work and I am paid decently. I just am here longer than usual today. I should survive though.

I got a call from my pastor last night because he hadn't seen. me at church in a while. I explained I have been working during service times this summer and he seemed to understand as he knows I need to make enough money to live on and don't get school checks in the summer. At least he is not one of those people who say you are going to hell if you are not in church every week.

During the school year, I may have another care gig. I got a message from a person on care.com saying they needed Saturday care for their autistic son. I would be up to that. Now we just have to set up a time to meet to make sure the mom is comfortable with me. I am really finding lots of things recently/this summer.

Well, I need to get to feeding K a snack as she just woke up.

I hop everyone has a decent day.

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hahaha, Wikid! I have a horse like that. I tried to take him swimming and he was frightened of the waves at the lake. I led him in and he kept trying to squish up against me when the waves came. He was almost in my lap and I was lucky there was mud and water cushioning us.

Healed...I'm sorry I missed your posts. Is everything okay?

I hate change but it is inevitable. People don't stay in the same place ...they grow, expand, move on... Its hard to feel like the one left behind.

Heeeeelllllllllllllloooooooooooo......

the silence is deafening...


ETA: oh well... silence at home...silence on the couch...

I'm back in East Texas , going to the house to touch up paint before close... Kinda sad. Almost over ...

Well, K had lunch and her first afternoon snack. Now she is asleep again. J stopped by to take K to the potty and brought stuff to eat for dinner. At least I get free food here. I am however bored out of my mind and I still have 4 hours left. Hopefully I will survive. I am starting to regret agreeing to a ten hour day today. I won't do that again even if it does mean more money. Sitting and doing nothing drives me nuts.

Quiet day on the couch today. Where is everyone?

I'm around...just took a nap. Thinking about going for a swim. The key word being *thinking*.

omg...it's freaking life sized!

That would never fit in a small house.

Hey couch peeps!

Just got back from my T session.....it was pretty much a wasted session, talking about my daughter going away and the anxiety that has been through the roof.....and then talked about my job situation, etc. T wants me to work out a real budget to see how long I can sustain living in this house before I lose it all - so that I can know when exactly I would need to decide on putting my house up for sale. Gah. Traded one anxiety for another.

We didn't delve into trauma work at all....I'm sure T noticed that I just wasn't in a place to do that.

Oh, and when I got up this morning, of course I was filled with anxiety about my daughter leaving for Disney today. I then had my assignment and was totally focused on that. After my assignment, the anxiety hit me like a ton of bricks...luckily, I met up with an old co-worker for lunch so that was a good distraction. Then, again - anxiety strikes...then I saw T - another diversion.

Now....I'm alone with it....I think I'm gonna call a friend and see if we can get together. I think I'll be better once my daughter arrives in Florida tomorrow.

I'm overreacting. It will blow over.

Who (or perhaps whom) are you missing?

Perhaps there is another service you could go to?