[ready2makenice]

What does everyone else do when they feel dead on the inside? I've become hopeless with my life. How do you get through a terrible week!!! I'm struggling and to a point where I don't care anymore!!!

Recap: Sooo I haven't seen my T in 3 weeks now!!! I stopped seeing her because of the overwhelming feeling of recovering from my ED. Today is a numb day. I feel dead on the inside and fantasize about how my life is going to end and it doesn't bother me one bit. It's a bit comforting. I just came back from vacation and the area I live in I feel so unloved and unwanted by everyone. My life seems pointless and I don't seem to enjoy anything right now. I don't know if I should reach out to my T,she's a busy woman and I don't want to bother her. Especially how I'm not actually her client right now. I feel hopeless and empty.

I don't know if these feelings or lack of will pass. I don't know why I'm writing here,just getting some feelings out. Any suggestions in my life?talking to ex T? Activities?

I'm a monster within myself and I'm terrified of myself but at the same time,it doesn't faze me. I hate my life!! I try so hard everyday but I'm tired of trying!!!

I don't know what I'm looking for here and I don't know what I'd say to my exT if I talked to her. I'm sure she's sick of me like everyone else in my life.

I'm sorry to bother all of you,just wanted to vent to my psych fam

[growlithing]

Wait you stopped seeing her because you were overwhelmed with recovering from an ED? Was she pushing you or were you just overwhelmed...? I think feeling overwhelmed is a normal part of therapy. Can you go back to her? People quit and come back all of the time. I'm sure your T isn't sick of you.

I personally naturally want to stare at a wall upset when I feel dead inside or SI. Sometimes I do that. But listening to music or playing games or drawing or watching TV or writing often helps. Not always through. I wish I had a better answer for both of us.

[pbutton]

I think contacting your T sounds like a really good idea. She is there to help with things like the feelings (or lack of feelings) you are having right now.

[0w6c379]

I think you should call your T. You did not end sessions on a bad note right? Maybe you just needed a break. The words will come when you see her and it won't be awkward like you think. PC is a good place to vent, without judgment, and is always here.

[Favorite Jeans]

I agree call your T.
Also sometimes watching reruns of sitcoms can be sort of distracting in a pleasant not-very-demanding way.
Doing crosswords (especially at a café) can be similarly pleasant.
Be good to yourself.

[gayleggg]

Personally, I sleep. It is my escape from life. Hope you feel better soon. I agree with everyone else, start seeing your therapist again.
Gayle

[kirby777]

I feel dead on the inside as well....I watch TV and come on here. Sometimes I read.

Contact your T, please.

[sittingatwatersedge]

((((((((((((((( r2mn )))))))))))))) you are NOT bothering anyone.

what do I do? I try to do good things for other people, or pray. Both help to take me out of myself.

true there are also some not so healthy things but you don't need those.

[SkinnySoul]

I've been feeling like that very often lately... I try to cope by sleeping it off.

If I can't sleep, I either take sleeping pills or I binge/purge . Bulimia hypnotizes me, I can't feel a thing until I'm done throwing up. Then off course, I feel even worse than before and I usually cry myself to sleep. What a wonderful life!

So, bottom line: I sleep.