Couch 61: How Long Will it Last?

Now I'm feeling a bit sick about the next session.

Hey how's things going?

Hey Melissa. Its a beautiful spring day here. Hows things with you?

MUE, I'm so sorry about your client.

Wiki, ouch. That is a painful condition.

Granite, what a cute little fuzzball! Best wishes for a long, happy, healthy life together.

I'm feeling very out of sorts lately. It was such an insanely busy baby season, I'm a little burned out with taking care of things. It's really hit me the last few weeks - since the brain tumor thing, I think - that I have no one to take care of me. I don't count T, because I pay him to take care of me. I take care of countless critters, my friends, my father and other family, and pretty much everyone else but myself. If I ask for help, I can usually get it, but once in a while, it would be nice for someone to just take care of me without me having to ask. For someone to notice when I'm down or struggling. I know it's a pretty passive-aggressive fantasy, but is it really so much to ask to get for myself what I give to others?

Umm ok...just struggling a bit as whether I will call T tomorrow and be totally honest about SH and risk losing her or not do it and risk really hurting myself.

CLIs it really a passive-aggressive fantasy?

You have contract about SH don't you? I must say that I have never had a SH contract but just little non-judgemental comments my T makes lessens the urge. I think he knows I do it, i just have never mentioned it. Would you be very affected by losing her?

Just the idea scares me and I start crying

On a different note I have an appt with a pdoc (a proper one, not a registrar at the hospital) in 2 weeks tiem and I haven't had my fasting bloods done. I just can't get up and not eat!

Wiki - I hope you get some relief soon.

Critterlady - I hear ya. What I've found is that when you work hard to help others and rarely ask for anything in return, people learn to rely on you and also get the message that you have no needs. It's like we condition them that way, at times. At least, that's what I'm starting to become aware of.

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Thanks, everyone, for your support. I didn't realize how affected I would be by my client's death. It bothers me that I don't trust that she died from a seizure. I will never know, so I know I need to just let it go. *sigh*

I am so stressed. Tomorrow, I have 2 assignments in the morning - and then have an hour and ten minutes to get to a 3rd assignment that takes over an hour to get to. I've never been there before and would normally build in time for traffic, etc. - but I don't have that option. I turned down the assignment but my manager called me saying she reeeeeealy needed me to do it. AARGH. Why can't I just stick to my decision? Ugh. So, tomorrow will be a super long and stressful day for me.

I'm sorry your client died, MUE. I really must read back through the couch. I didn't realise Wiki was feeling poorly as well.

Has anyone seen a T in the US that is still under supervision? How does that differ? Is it just that he talks over his clients with the supervisor? Did they take a lot of notes?

Hello? Feeling like I want to go "home" but I don't know what "home" is......Just feeling lonley I guess.

Hey BPA, my daughter says that sometimes. We'll be at home, but she'll say she wants to go home. Usually that means she is feeling a little adrift. What do you think might help?

I understand the workings of databases but why do I have to log out of my account so the govt lady can log on to read my account. I always thought there were read/write priviledges and such. I can't change anything in my account... I need it on screen so I can talk to the silly women. Becoming slightly paranoid about the whole thing.

Hi MKAC. I haven't had any interaction people yet this morning, but I do't want too much as I'm going out to a meeting this evening and it will just be a little too much. I can hear my roomie in the kitchen I'll TRY to have a limited conversation with her.

Good luck, BPA. I'm headed to bed. Have a good day.

Sleep well MKAC. Glad you are back.

No thats not what I needed. I think I need a hug.

Arrived in West Virgina, its beautiful country by man is it backwoods

Hi Melissa!

Well, it won't be your fault if you are late.

Poorest state in the Union, and so rugged even General Lee couldn't conquer it.

Thanks for the hugs guys.

Yes. There are many reasons why I don't want kids, and the complete lack of solitude is high on the list.

I started it but could only read a chapter or so. I did not like the style of writing at all, it really grated on me. I own several thousand books and several hundred of them are books I really want to read, so I don't waste time on books that are painfully incompatible with me. But lots of people love The Book Thief, so this is really only my opinion.

I read a lot of YA books but this did not strike me as YA. I don't think my local bookshop classified it as such either. These labels can be really arbitrary.