Struggling and disappointed with t

Hi, for those keeping up with my posts, I left a message for my t telling her I was struggling with flashbacks to the point where I had to call crisis hotline, due to an event that happened to me. I still have not received a call I'm getting depressed and I don't see her till Wednesday . Last session we discussed her seeing me weekly due to the nature of the topics ( CSa) and working on transference issues with anther therapist , but nothing became of that either. It's rough to see her every two weeks. I jus feel like canceling everything.

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If I remember correct you go to a clinic, ask the front desk to put you on your T's cancellation list. First thing next session ask for weekly appointments and to permanently be on the cancellation list.

I think I would feel the same way. Actually, I think I do feel the same way. I left a message telling my T I hurt, but okay enough that I wouldn't "do" anything, and previously he had told me to call him back if I needed to. I believe him when he says that, and I also think that I would never call and tell him I NEEDED to. maybe. not sure. it would be hard. I would just tough it out. I would be afraid to be that needy. And I would be afraid of getting too attached and grateful if he went out of his way for me like that.

I didn't ask for anything. I thought he might call back. I didn't realize that I hoped he would call back, and I'm disappointed that he didn't call back, just to see how I was doing.

So I totally understand (I think) your feelings of being depressed about it. And feeling like cancelling everything makes sense to me too. I've felt that way. sort of like STOP THE WORLD. I WANT TO GET OFF (a song & musical from the 60s). I feel like that sometimes. not sure if that's the same for you.

I'm sorry to hear your are having flashbacks. I imagine it's draining to have them, and then hard to wait days and days to be able to work on them. Is that it?

Thats definitly it, glad you understand I regretted the call as soon as I placed it. Wednesday cant come soon enough but I feel resentment now, I am kind of a mess , she did suggest weekly sessions but said no more about it, I think I will let my pride down ajd ask her.