[skittles]

i see pdoc tomorrow.. im going to tell her everything thing.. i might ask her if i should maybe check myself in the hopsital for a few days to get my mind straight... i wanted to die all day....... i actually have how id die planned out...... so im going to tell her all this and see what she has to say

[(JD)]

(((hugs))) I think that is a good idea, and hope you follow through with your T. I also hope that she will step up her contact with you during these tough days, so you don't have to go in, but at al costs, stay safe.

I'm proud of you that you didn't do anything about your thoughts today. That shows that you really are strong at times, and that you really don't want to die, you want things to change and be better! I hope you can give your T the opportunity to help you change things so you can live life well.

[Hopefull]

Way to go. I am glad that you are able to be honest with yourself and your Pdoc. I hope Pdoc and T are able to help you. I am glad that you didn't act on any of your thoughts. Hang in there.

as long as she is aware of how you feel, she will know how to help and what will be more effective.

good luck and i hope these bad feelings pass soon, i know just how hard they can be. but you'll get there soon enough.

take it easy on yourself and go steady.

simon

Thinking of you, skittles. You do need to be honest with your doc. I'm going today, too, & have much of the same feelings you do. Some docs have wanted me to go to the hospital, but I've refused after seeing my mother in mental institutions. I know they've changed a lot, but it would make me feel that I'm as bad off or as severe as she was & I couldn't face that. I have done outpatient treatment, though.

Hope you get some relief soon. Take care.--Suzy