I'm pissed off that my T made me get on the scale in front of her and that she took it and that I let her and made a pledge with her to only get on the scale at her office every week in front of her. I didn't know how I felt about it yesterday after session and throughout the day and night..but between going to sleep and waking up today I have become agitated about it. She made it seem like it was the easiest thing to do..to just get on the scale in front of me and then me get on it in front of her. I just went along with it too...I'm such a passive wimp.
Also all my issues can not be helped that much with praying every single day. I believe in god and I'm spiritual and part of a faith..and so is my T. I know I have gotten away from God...my self harm has become me..and yes I have been praying every day, but I don't believe me praying to be healthy every morning I wake up is going to stop me from eating and vomiting up my food during the day..it hasn't helped stop me yet. I let God down every day. Turning to my higher power is not the only way she is using to help...but prayer has been more prevalent in our sessions, which is good..but yesterday it irritated me. She asked how many times/days I had b/p over the week and then after that she asked how many days had I prayed like we talked about in last week's session. Which I had prayed..not every single day when I woke up like I should have, but I did pray. It just seemed like praying was somehow a direct correlation between me self harming that day and not. I don't know..maybe it is and I'm not really trying. I don't feel as close to God anymore and I want to be. I'm so stubborn though. Always have been. I'm stubborn and pissed off.

[Travelinglady]

Hey, kneehole. I hope you will be able to tell your T about your anger when you meet with her next time. Maybe the two of you can get at the root of your anger, and you can start to deal with your passivity. She might have sort of surprised you, though, with what she did. That kind of thing has happened to me a lot, and as you say, only later do I realize how mad I am about it.

I happen to believe in prayer. But I think human treatment of disorders is important in most cases. Are you telling your T about the self-harm and are you two working on ways to help you to be able to stop?

[CantExplain]

Does she have a good reason for weighing you?
It sounds intrusive and humiliating.

Originally Posted by CantExplain

Does she have a good reason for weighing you?
It sounds intrusive and humiliating.

The OP has an eating disorder.

Hey Kneehole...

my xT and t2 are both christian therapist... They both have approached b/p as a coping mechanism an unhealthy one and have approached it as a lets learn more healthy coping mechanisms along with getting to the root of the issues that are deeper that cause you to need a coping mechanism...

So i can see prayer as a coping mechanism or a prevention tool but i hope you two are working to get down to the deeper causes

[unlockingsanity]

Can you talk to your therapist about the weighing-in-session issue. I remember your other post when she asked you to bring the scale and you didn't know what it was for. Did you talk to her about it before the session?

We're here to bounce ideas off of you to help, but talking to your therapist about how you feel is the most important thing we can offer as help.

[laughattack]

Originally Posted by unlockingsanity

We're here to bounce ideas off of you to help, but talking to your therapist about how you feel is the most important thing we can offer as help.

Totally agree. And this is the answer to most of these posts, including my own, about frustration with or about one's T. Bring the emotion, concern, thought, anxiety, whatever it is, up with T. Amazing things can come from this.

But in the meantime, I think it's all right to record or express these frustrations and items, and ask for feedback. As long as it doesn't lead to not sharing them with T.

[Victoria'smom]

I would be furious if T took my scale. You went out on a limb about a very private thing and she made a miss step. Please talk to her about this! I'm pretty sure she's not an ED specialist. I really do not feel this is a healthy step. In her mind she is getting rid of a trigger for you