[Sailaway]

I woke up early this morning and was really uneasy. I crawled into the corner of my bed and held onto my stuffed alligator and memories where just flooding every sense I have. It's so hard to put words to these feelings.
Those are the kind of moments I would like to have in therapy but how do I bring myself to that in a room. Carrying a stuffed alligator into a session might not be to good neither would crawling into the corner of the room and just letting emotion be emotion. She might commit me or at least that's what I fear. I'm not so good at letting anyone possibly have a little bit more control than me.

[biplol]

((((Sailaway)))) I'm teh same way, I just have those "moments" when nobody is around.
What I'm trying to do is to keep my journal as updated as possible; in that way I get the thought I need to get out, out of my mind and also it helps when I'm trying to explain how I really feel to somebody else.
~~~hugs your way~~~

Sailaway.. this describes me so closely.. Today i was having a moment and had to sit under my desk in my office to feel safe again. Sometimes i wish my T was there to offer to come under with me.

[Rapunzel]

I tell my T about the times when I have felt like I needed to hide under my desk. Then we can talk about what was going on and why I felt that way. The only reasons for 'committing' you would be if you are a danger to self or others. Needing to hug a stuffed animal doesn't seem to be in that category. If it helps you, go ahead and take the alligator. Maybe you can curl up in the corner of the chair or couch and talk about it. And if you take the alligator, it is still your choice what you want to say, or even if you take the alligator out of your bag at all.