couch 63 the fall line

Goodnight ready

It is tasty. And a way to use up extra apples that are not in an ideal state of crunchiness in a somewhat not unhealthy fashion.

OMG I think my ex is a little confused. I think he confused what I said, which was I still care about him and I want him to be happy, I think he interpreted it as I still love him and sometime in the not-too-distant-future I will come back. He has told this other woman he's not interested and we had a repeat of the conversation about 6 months ago when I said I wasn't coming back but I didn't see why we still couldn't be friendLY, meaning civil. I can't handle people at the moment. What with what is going on in T and the problems I''m having communicating with my daughters. I am really trying to concentrate on my daughters but when my ex sees a vulnerable moment he swoops and I say stupid things like that. I'm tring to sort out his emotional "stuff" from mine but I'm just so overwhelmed.

Thanks for the concern MKAC. I was on antidepressants at the start off the year and went a bit manic, and was taken off them by the junior doctors at the hospital, I wasn't allowed to see a proper pdoc at the hospital and they juniors were too scared to try new ones. I am now seeing a qualified pdoc with 20+ years exp and said a low dose of this med shouldn't affect me as I only have a low level depression but enough to affect my motivation and eneergy.

I wish understood the emotional meanings behinds words more.

I thought this was interesting.
http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/...approach-style

I think I'm facing burnout. I want to tell my boss to hire another front man and I'll retreat to the back room on a reduced salary.

I don't mind programming, analysis and design, but I don't want to do releases, installs, support or foreign travel.

All the MH people I talk to say do what you need to do to look after yourself, if you will earn enough to support your family and they don't mind and if it is definitely less stressful for you, do it. But if there are co-workers who will give you grief you will need to take this into consideration too. Good luck CE.

To me it seems like it is your ex who lacks this understanding.

My T thinks I have almost hit Burnout smack in the face also!!

CE you do what is right for you ok...what BPA said is on the button. I hope you do ask for what you need.

I saw my GP yesterday and have been signed off from fulltime work at my request and her agreement. I am not sure if I will cope financially, it'll be incredibly tough but rather that than make my mental health suffer even more. And I am sure my son will be happier if Mummy is less stressed.

I hope I dont get fired for a reduction in my work capacity. Yikes!!

sorry to be a bug again.just need to try and get this out of my head .I fell asleep but woke up with spinning thoughts and panic. I seem to have settled on one thought of SI .it scares me .why now ? why am I doing so horrible? sorry if I offend anyone I really am trying to stay quiet so I don't .I just cant talk to no one .thanks for listening

Wish we could help more. ((((Granite))))

((((Granite))))
I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. You're in my thoughts.

TRIGGER TRIGGER TRIGGER for mention of SI



I should probably not be talking about any of this but it is obsessive in my head. it is very specific. usually my SI is reactive .it has a purpose. this thought is deep in my mind but it is like someone else planted it there and is trying to encourage me to do it just because it would be the proper thing to do. most of my spinning thoughts are saying this is crazy .forget it,etc.. and then it is something you need and should do. I have taken something to help me calm down and go back to sleep .I hope in the morning it will be gone .it scares me.

getting off now thank you .have a good nigh-day again thank you

Thanks.

It's not the people, just the responsibilities.
And we could survive on my wife's salary alone, which is comforting to know.
Who findeth a wife findeth a good thing!

I may feel better when I'm not sick.

((Bunyip))

Sounds like "friendly" is not on the menu. You might have to settle for "strangers".

I'm really glad you are fighting this impulse. That's the way to win!

You can do this!

Granite..I hope you were able to fall back to sleep and wake up with feeling some relief. Hugs

(((((BPA)))))) hugs.

CE: There is nothing wrong with stepping down and taking on a less stressful role at work, if it will help. I've done that in the past and while at first it made me feel weak and shameful, in the end it ended up being one of the most effective self care moves I've ever done for myself. Wishing you clarity. Hugs.

((((((((Mast)))))))) hi.

Good morning everyone. I'm up already. It's Saturday. I should be sleeping, but nope. I'm awake, walked the dogs and ate breakfast. I had a dream overnight that all my teeth fell out. Weird. I used to have that dream when I was bulimic. I haven't engaged in those behaviors in a really long time so I'm going to own it up to all the dentist talk. I wanted to use the stick out my tongue icon...but I can never get those things on my ipad. lol...

Good morning. I'm off to take of wild birdies this morning.

I just discovered for the first time that I'm on someone's ignore list. I can't even begin to imagine why. I try not to be mean. Am I mean?

morning all...
(((Granite))) I hope you slept a bit. Sorry you are going thru such a horrendous time.
SD...I don't know about Barley Apple Pudding...what's in it?
Jerz...get out an photograph
CE...its okay to step back when you are under that much pressure.
BPA...I think it's your XH who has the lack of communication

HUGS to everyone. I was up most of the night, Sadie was a pest. She kept waking us up, she was restless and cantankerous. Even Lex got up and left the room at about 2AM because she was too tired to deal with her. I shut her in her crate around 4AM...so I got about 2 hrs undisturbed sleep. I think the Hunter's Moon was way too bright and it confused her or something. Grrrr.

((((CL))))

NO, you are definitely not mean...I can't imagine why either. I found out I was too, and it really hurt.
Sorry!

Oh CL..you are not mean. At all. I've ended up on an ignore list before...and I hardly post at all outside the couch. Sorry.

Yeats ( my dog) was like this last as well!!

Good morning all! Still laying in bed, kids slept in this morning what good feeling that was. Anybody have anything excited planned today?

CL you are def not mean!