[Sky200094]

Im 18, i've had problems since I was 14. They went from very bad to extremely severe. The Dr I seen doesn't seem to care or take me serously. He diagnosed me within 8 minutes of meeting me, he said I had major depressive disorder. Which I knows not true there's so much more than that. I was in a hospital 4 times for anxiety problems from 14 to 15, It would've been alot more times, but I begged my mom not to take me. they never really did anything. I was on meds for mood/anxiety. I know I have a personality disorder, I also have social phobia, at 15 I cut the world off completely, I stoped hanging out with friends deleated social media accounts, turned off my cellphone. Its gotten so bad that I can stay in the house for a month straight, when I leave I wear a hoodie in the car because im scared people are looking at me, im suicidal and sometimes I have homicidal thoughts when angry I dont feel like myself I feel like im dreaming and nothings real. I dont want to be around anyone and im scared, angry, anxious and sad all the time. I cant work and I feel like a looser, I just want a normal life. I feel like its to late, im just getting older. I feel like if angry enough I can really hurt someone, I dont think I would but idk,
I stoped going to thearpy because they dont seem to care which sucks because I want 2 get help. What exaclty should I do??

[elaygee]

Finding a fit with a therapist can be trying. I believe there has to be a level of "therapeutic chemistry". You sound like you have insight and need to find the right therapist to help. My advice: dont give up, search for a T who meets your needs, try not to settle if it doesnt feel right.

[Nightlight]

It's definitely not too late to turn your life around in a big way. The most important thing is that you want to and that you are actually taking steps to make a difference. I know that by the time you're 18 years old, it can feel like you're getting older and quite set in your ways. Now, looking back at myself at age 18, I was so much younger than I actually felt at the time. I didn't start to receive help until I was 23 and I've managed really big changes. Before then, I couldn't live a normal life, find work, or even pick the phone up to make a simple call. It's been really hard work and my progress has often felt slow, but gradually things started adding up and eventually it made a big difference.

I haven't personally found that a particular diagnosis from a doctor is overly helpful. It doesn't change the way I struggle, it only gives it a label. A label can help guide treatment, but the label I was given matches me in some ways and not in others. Maybe having a better diagnosis will be necessary for you in terms of medication options. Perhaps if you find the right therapist they can get to know and understand you and then they can write a letter for your doctor, which might help to communicate things that the doctor is missing.

I've found that a good therapist is willing to work with me and all off my issues, regardless of the diagnosis. It's mostly been a good therapist (and then my own willingness to push myself) that helps me the most. I think that that it's important to see the right person and when it comes to dealing with a number of long term complex problems, a therapist with a lot of experience is usually quite important as well.

It sounds like you're really struggling. I hope you find the help you need. Life can be really, really hard. It's also possible to turn things around and at 18, you really are still young and there is definitely time.

[Victoria'smom]

So you worry about your Self injury, eating disorder and psychosis? I really think you need to make a list of symptoms. Go to your therapist and ask him/her if s/he can help you get rid of these symptoms and if not can s/he refer you to someone. Do the same with a new psychiatrist. Dr's don't tend to take young people and small people serious but over react to large men. You need to demand that they listen.

[Rzay4]

Wow that must be really hard I hope soon you find someone who can really help you understand what you may be experiencing. My long term T also refused to diagnose me she just said I had anxiety and grief. Which was true but I had depression as well.

It wasn't until this year when I went to major depression I was diagnosed by my pdoc and second T. So it definitely can take time but for you I hope you find help sooner. Good luck let us know how it goes.

[jacq10]

I wouldn't get too hung up on a diagnosis provided by your doctor. Mental health isn't reaaaally their thing, and your doc likely wanted to just get you started on a medication that would help a number of different things (not just depression - the med they prescribed will likely help with anxiety too). The label is less important than the managing of symptoms. I would suggest having a thorough mental health evaluation by a psychologist or psychiatrist. They are the one that would be able to help you tease apart your feelings about a personality disorder, and the anger you've been experiencing.

Best of luck
Jacq