[bassrunnin]

So, started therapy for first time ever due some major issues going on at work and having anxiety attacks and being diagnosed at 39 with ADD, so my initial thought was to do therapy to get thru the situation at work, and then work on cognitive stuff for my ADD. Well, I have gone to 3 sessions and at this last one was talking some about my past. Well, let's just say I had a lot of things happen in childhood and continued on into adulthood. Just in the last 6 years have I been in a normal life situation. Actually now that I do the math that 33 years...wow, ok anyhow, session was yday had to go to work. when i got off work and family was asleep I couldn't sleep and my mind kept racing about just diff things going from one to the other of all the stuff i'd been thru. So now my anxiety is getting thru the roof on the inside (knotted stomach syndrome!) but I won't let my family (kids and husband) see it. Anyhow...i said all that to ask this?

My next appt isn't until next Friday...and it's kind of hit me like a freight train that I have never ever dealt with anything because i have always kept my self to busy to think about things...(don't know if that makes sense?) So this whole sitting for an hour thing had me bring some stuff vaguely in conversation which of course brings those memories back...so first off, any advice on how to put them back in their hole until at least next week...

Does this mean really i should be focusing on that even if I don't want to go there? I feel like I would like to make an appt earlier then next Fri but afraid to ask...I don't even know if it would be in line to maybe instead ask to speak to the T instead? I'm sure she told me what policy was, but i wasn't probably paying attention since at the time I didn't think it would apply so didn't file it away in the old noggin! Anyhow, any advice would be appreciated. Also, if I call to ask those questions will T think I'm looney? Ok, that was kind of a stupid question since that's why people do therapy...but you know what i mean, theirs sane looney, and then theirs scarey looney...

Also, if I do call, how do I make myself call and ask? Why is it so hard to ask? I mean seriously I'm not 5! Ok, enough rambling...any insight would help...thanks

You're suffering a great deal. You need and deserve help. And it would definitely be ok to call and ask for an earlier session. Nothing unusual or scary (for the T) about that.

It might not be possible for you to get an earlier session, of course, and you're right, it's really really tough to stuff those thoughts back into the box. Writing them down can help. For me, getting the thoughts onto paper (or a password protected document on my computer) can help me tell those thoughts to stay away for a while, until I am in a place where I can deal with them.

I hope you'll get the help you need.

And welcome to the forum! I'm glad you decided to post here.

[purple orchid]

I know exactly what you mean when you say you try to keep busy to avoid thinking about things..
I do that too.
I think you should try to call and speak with yout T or at least try to get and earlier appointment.
I know it is not easy.
They will not think you are scarey looney! They are used to dealing with people like us everyday.
Good luck and take care

[ar2004]

I went to therapy for help with stress management and after a couple sessions all kinds of feelings I had buried from childhood started coming up outside of T sessions. I would rather just re-bury them too but I figure there is a reason they are coming out and my T is there to help. They haven't all come out in therapy yet but I am sure they will along with any others that my T helps me uncover in our sessions.

I make appointments with my T when I am in session so if I need to change it, I have to call her directly as there is no office staff or anything. In your case, I would say you call and try to schedule the session earlier and if your T says anything you just be honest that you did not remember the policy on that (which it sounds like you don't). You should also be prepared for the possibility that she might be booked up and your current appointment is the earliest she can see you next.