[IndestructibleGirl]

This is my second utterly pointless thread in a few days. I'm sorry, I just want to put it down here..

Right now, I'm shaking and shaking with fear. I don't even know what I'm anxious about. I'm in my flat by myself, but I usually like my own company. Last night I was just so overwhelmingly lonely but today I've seen friends, am seeing them later again, and have a phone call to catch up with a relative in half an hour, so it's not like I'm isolated or anything. I don't understand what is wrong with me, I can't seem to get a grip. It's not a crisis so I don't want to call my therapist. I know I can if I want to, but the waiting for her to call back will make me more edgy, I think. Last night I engaged in old destructive behavior and then took two diazapam to try to numb the desperation, and then finally called a number for people in distress. I felt better this morning, and I just keep telling myself I'm fine, everything's okay...but I don't really feel okay now again. I just don't know WHY. Jesus. I guess what I'm asking is, what do you do for those times when you are feeling shaky but it's not an outright emergency? Do you contact your therapist or not? I'm not saying there's one universal rule, I know it's different for us all, but I can't judge when I should or shouldn't ask for support.

Urgh, sorry for the ramble

[Lexi232]

*hugs*!!!

have you ever tried any grounding techniques? have they ever helped?

in my experience, the whys cause more pain and confusion. i try to focus not on a reason, but that i am feeling that way, even tho i dont know why, atleast it takes me to the step past the why questions so that i can try and feel better.

if nothing seems to help, i would personally suggest to try and call your T if you start to feel like or want to do something destructive. (before you do it).

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[stopdog]

I don't think the first one I see would be useful if I contacted her by phone. She might if I made an actual appointment in such circumstances.
The second one actually encourages me to call at times like what you describe. (I usually don't as the fear of being mocked by her for it not being a real emergency is very strong. But the fear is not because of anything this particular therapist has done.)

[Perna]

I would continue to self-soothe as well as I could, remind myself that "this too shall pass" and try to concentrate on going out with friends later or whatever it was I wanted to think about instead of how miserable I felt. If you were feeling bad yesterday, it could be related to something yesterday or that happened earlier or something happening later in your life or could be dietary, I would play detective (to forget how I actually felt) or just endure it until something else could take its place.