My last session...

Last Thursday, I was finally able to let me T know how I feel (suicidal thoughts). I have social anxiety and could not say it. I wrote it down on paper and she read it. I watched her read it, no expression on her face and there were some bad thoughts written down.

We were making a list of the people in my life my death would affect if I committed suicide. She said to also add her name to my list. That touch me so deeply as I never thought she cared about me.

After the session was over, I finally asked her for a hug after 3 years of wanting to ask her. I thought it was a good session.

Later that night, I came home and wrote her a thank you email for the session and just to say what a good therapist she is. She doesn't like me to write her emails and rarely responses, but received an email this morning that she was proud of me for my bravery and honesty.

But now I feel embarrassed that she truly knows how I feel. I don't know how I will face her again in 2 weeks.

This past week I finally asked my T for a hug after 3 years of seeing her. I have been wanting to do that for so long but never had the nerve (I have social anxiety).

Would it be too much to hug her after every session moving forward? Does anyone else hug their T after each session.

I have been seeing my T for trauma issues for the last 3 years. I been feeling really depressed for the last few months but could not tell my T how I truly felt - have social anxiety.

I finally wrote it all down on paper. She read it, I watched her as she read it, no expression on her face and it had about suicidal thoughts.

I glad she knows now how I truly feel. We started to create a list if I committed suicide whose life it would also affect. She told me to add her name to the list too. That truly affected me as I didn't think she cared about me. I was touched.

I came home and felt the need to write her a thank you email for my session. She doesn't like I send her emails and rarely responses. This morning I received an email from her saying she is proud of me for my bravery and honesty. It made my day!

My problem now is I feel embarrassed that she knows. Im glad she knows but not sure how I can face her on Nov. 26th when I see her next.

At my last session I also asked her for a hug as I been wanting to do that for so long. She said something while we hugged but I was so nervous I didn't comprehend what she said. Do you think its OK to ask for a hug after every session?

I think it's always okay to ask. Some ts do, some dont. My previous ten ts, none did. My current t does. I was just ranting to him this week about the way my previous ts would want to hug me at my FINAL goodbye session with them, and I would NOT understand that at all. What - all of a sudden I turned into a person? What was I before? anyway, good for you for sharing with your t. That sounded like a good session.

My previous Therapist wouldn't even hug me after my goodbye session and I felt very upset.

Well said, Hankster!!!!

You can ask but most T's are careful about when and why they hug. Main T will hug me if I ask but he refused when I wanted to give him a hug after his dad died. He is careful to do it for me and not for himself.