[lrt1978]

So in my last T session we were talking about what happens after Christmas, therapy wise, my T said that after Christmas we will start to peel the layers of the onion, layer by layer in hope we can reach the core and do what work needs doing along the way.

Today I just feel like ringing and cancelling and running away from therapy, I know I need to do this work but it feels like my T is going to take the wall down that I have around me that has kept me safe and stopped me from getting hurt, I know I should discuss this with my T next week when I see her but I just feel stupid bringing it up.

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[A Red Panda]

I've been having to really resist the urge to bolt too. I actually managed to tell my T that I almost didn't show up for the last appointment, and told him why.... I don't think I really had much emotion going on at the time though as I relatively shut down so that I could get it out.

I think this is the kind of fear that we're needing to face though, don't you think? And don't feel stupid discussing it with your T - she'll be glad that you shared. My T, based on what I said last time, sent me an email saying thank you and then said that he thinks he's been going too fast and is going to slow things down. Letting your T know will help her go at a pace that's tolerable to you instead of overwhelming you.