Couch 67 - Keep calm, carry on, and have a cup of tea.

((((chickie)))) I hope you have fun.

Lola - I am like that. As you said, it's not something you have control over, your heart just crushes when you feel other's pain. I take on other's emotions and wear them like an old sweater. It's hard to let go of. I get overwhelmed in crowds sometimes, because I am like a sponge absorbing all this emotion. Some people call it being an Empath. I am not sure, I just know it isn't always a good thing.

Ugly sweater day at 4. Between now and then i have to do laundry and clean up a bit.

hey all..
Neut....that was very cool. I never stop to think about the complexities of the heart before. Amazing.

I started the day really down. Had a rough "argument" with my mother last night that proved to me YET AGAIN that I will never ever measure up to the worth of my brother (or any sibling). I am so stupid. It hurts every time. So I cried (like a freakin little baby) myself to sleep. Today I had Boston, but my D did as well, and she drove. She also controlled the radio, and we listened to Xmas music the whole trip, along with her singing every song at the top of her lungs. (thankfully she has beautiful voice). We went to Harvard Sq. after our appointments and got some shopping done. I LOVE HARVARD SQUARE. It was festive. It was not too cold. My back held up long enough to walk the whole way. I enjoyed watching D speak broken Japanese with a gentleman who spoke broken English....and they communicated, laughed and it was a sweet moment when both acknowledged that the other was doing well with their second languages.

So I am better. A glass of wine. A cuddling dog. And a crazy as sed ugly sweater to wear to the Ugly Sweater Party tomorrow night, what more can a girl ask for?

Sweet dreams and peace to my couch buddies...you all deserve both.

wiki out

Let me just use this thread for brief moment to share my complete and utter fascination for how the human body works. I held a heart today. Sure, it wasn't a human heart, it was a pig's heart but they're built the same way (only a pig's heart is a bit bigger). Anyway, I held a heart today. I cut it open (it was for an assignment in my anatomy class by the way) and observed everything in it: the atria and ventricles, the arteries and the veins, the valves, the heart wall and the muscles etc. It's a very beautiful organ and it blows my mind that something so small, something that fits in the palm my hand, makes sure we stay alive and fully functional. It's so intricate and it works with perfect precision (most of the time) without us even thinking about it.

As I was sitting there with the heart in one hand and a pair of scissors in the other I couldn't help but marvel at the beauty of it all. We're such complex creatures. We're born and everything just works. Blood flows, we fill our lungs with air, hemoglobin binds oxygen and carries it from the lungs to the tissues and brings carbon dioxide back to the lungs for us to exhale. We're able to process and interpret the information from our surroundings, we're able to learn things and form new neural pathways while doing so. We're able to see, hear, feel, think, taste, smell, walk, talk etc. I'm not sure if what I'm writing is coherent enough for you to understand but the point is I'm blown away by how incredibly awesome the human body is, and if I get to spend the rest of my life working within the field of medicine/biology/biochemistry then I'll be more than fine (mental illness aside).

I can't wait until my neurobiology class starts.

As anybody here willingly put themselves in the hospital? Like for more than I am not safe, at this moment... For a stay that you know would be at least a week long?

As anybody here willingly put themselves in the hospital? Like for more than I am not safe, at this moment... For a stay that you know would be at least a week long?

Very awesome. When I was in high school, I did hold a human heart (I took a course at a nearby university for kids interested in studying medicine), and it was amazing. I remember thinking, dang, this thing is a MUSCLE. You don't always stop and think about how hard it has to work, and so it's just this solid chunk of pure muscle.

That life just "works" is amazing to me. When you think about everything that has to happen between one atom and another building all the way up to a living breathing person.... it's why I became a biochemist .

I was going to volunteer for hospital once, but my T talked me out of it. I have been before and I found it very helpful. Hope everyone has a fun Saturday.

I need to learn how to make friends who are healthy... Most of my friends "needed me" but the problem is when they dont need me anymore or they replace me for someone else to meet their needs....I get dumped..

Healed, I pm'ed Chris to see if she had some insight for you. Please hang in there and stay safe.

my friend texted this morning to go to so i said yes and hopped in shower then she cancelled so I took myself out to breakfast