I miss my ex-therapist a lot.

No the new person can't replace the old, but I've certainly learned that it doesn't have to be an either/or thing. They aren't mutually exclusive.

It helped me to think of it not as replacement, but as a re-start.

It was a step I didn't necessarily want to take, but that's life sometimes. I don't mean to come across as glib, but, well, things come and go. Sometimes we don't get to keep what we love.

But that doesn't mean that we'll never love again, or feel connection again, or that we have to stop growing.

We can.

When you are ready, I'm sure you will open to this new situation. Grief gets to play itself out.

It's okay. It sucks, but it's okay.

I don't think you guys are getting what I'm saying, but nevermind, I'll just figure it out I suppose.

Then explain it better.

Do you really think people on this board haven't suffered loss and felt what you have?

I'm not "suffering" just. I don't even know how to explain it.

And yeah, I do feel rather alone and empty, no matter how many times people tell me I'm not.

I sent her an email and now I regret it...

she probably won't even answer...

Good job for reaching out nonetheless! What did you say?

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All I said was hi and could I come in for one more session because I wasn't adjusting well to having to terminate with her.

I'm proud of you for reaching out about your needs. I hope she replies quickly!

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Well she emailed me back and called me. Can't do individual but she said that if I was in emotional pain then they accept walk-ins and I could ask for her.

How do you feel?

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What do you mean by that? It sounds like the door is open for you to see her again?

I can't schedule an appointment, is what that means. But they keep a counselor on duty for people who need to just walk in and need to talk to someone.

And Yogix, I'm okay I guess.

It sounds like she really cares. I hope you are able to get everything out and tell her how you feel.

I hope she does...

I miss Madame T terribly, but there's a good reason I left and I don't think I will go back.

On the one hand that sucks that you won't be able to book regular appointments with you, but that's GREAT that she said you could ask for her at walk-in! I would suggest calling the walk-in a head of time and asking if she is working. They may or may not tell you, but I always tried when I wanted to see my T specifically on a day we didn't have an appointment.

Good job for reaching out and emailing her! At least now you know, and it's one less thing that you have to worry about