[Daeva]

So my T (Who was dressed BEAUTIFULLY btw) comes out of the office at 12:40, my appt is at 1. She sees me and her face lights up and she goes, "OH you're here! HI!" and waves, and goes, "I'll take you in early Daeva, just let me get my tea done." So she comes over to the waiting area with her tea and sits next to me and goes, "Would you like some tea?" And I'm like, "Uh....." my heart skipped a beat, was it too much to ask? Did she offer just to be nice? I don't want to create too much of a burden, do I really want to take something from her that she could use? Would she mind? Is it okay? Does she mean it? Will she be upset?

I finally forced myself to say, "Yes." and she asked what kind and I felt horrible because I feel it was an inconvenience and selfish and go, "What kind do you have?" and she's like "Well lets go back to my office and see!" And so we went back to her office and she pulled out a drawer where all her fun stuff is and we went through her teas and I picked mango orange (Really good and one of the expensive Tea's oops sorry T). So she's like, "You sit here and relax, I will go get you your tea." So she left and I pulled out my gift.

She came back and goes, "I'll set it next to you because it's really hot." And the moment of doom came. I go, "I made you something." And she'sl ike, "OH really? Let's see!" So the moment her eyes fell on the cow on the front page she grinned, "Oh my god it's a cow, aww how cute!" She flipped through it, picking out things she liked on every page and awwing and asking if I drew it myself and if the idea was original, and complimenting me on my drawing abilities, and telling me how much she loved it. She even complimented me on the friendship bracelets I made to tie it together, saying she adored it. She really loved it, I honestly thought she'd reject it or just give a polite thank you, and give some compliments but she was over the moon about it. She asked how long it took me to make and I told her and she was honored she said.

She then went on about my creativity and how I could use that for myself as well and we went into how it's easier for me to do things for others than myself, and what that means and so begins the therapeutic time. However at the end of session she called the residential facility for me and while we were on hold, she goes, "I hear christmas music, do you?" and I'm like ,"yup!" and she goes, "I'm glad it just wasn't me, I would hope I'm not beginning to hear things...." and i'm like, "So tell me how do you feel about that?" and she laughed and goes, "Anxious. Very anxious!" And I'm like, "Really, let's talk about that...." and she kept laughing and goes, "See you're going to be great at this! A natural! Let's switch places!" And I go, "Actually When my friends talk to me about their issues I will say something and then go, 'hmm T said that to me...." And she laughed harder, and I'm like, "I'm channeling you like a genie!" She had to hang up and call again cause she was laughing so hard, she has the funniest most contagious laugh too! I love it, it's cute!

So then I ask, "So whatcha doing for christmas?" and she told me and asked me in return and since i'm alone she recommended me to volunteer and is going to find a place that could use my help. She told me to call her on Friday to tell me how the interview went , and she'd tell me if she found a place for me yet. She then took my empty cup from me and told me she'd wash it for me and take care of it, since it was a real cup

We ran over and she didn't even care. We usually have 40 minute sessions, I got 90 minutes today! Mainly cause there's not so many students who are able to see her so her client number drops so there's no rushing to the next appt, she usually leaves 15 minutes b/w sessions.

EDIT
So also I was triggered earlier this week to go into a panic attack over a fear of T dying, and what not. And she had to walk me through the whole fear of abandonement thing again, and once more promised she wasn't going anywhere's if she could help it, she plans to be there for me.

[ShrinkPatient]

I'm so happy for you!!! That sounds like a wonderful session. You sound really embraced and appreciated! Those are amazing feelings that we don't always feel very often. Wallow in them. She sounds like a great T!!!!

[unaluna]

Im speechless.

[ShrinkPatient]

Btw: I had a feeling she'd really appreciate it. You did an awesome job. I hope my T enjoys the painting I've commissioned just as much!

[Daeva]

Thanks guys! I was so nervous because my Mother use to ridicule anything I did for her or anyone, especially if it was hand made. Once she asked me to get her a cup of water so I did--it was ice cold but she goes, "Well ******* Daeva if I wanted it hot enough to bath in I would have said so." And anything I made she'd laugh at and what not, so it was oober hard--and T doesn't know how hard since I never shared that part of my mothers and I's relationship. She does know about all the other stuff. Having to go over how my mom use to poison me for her own amusement today was fun

Shrink--your T is going to ADORE that! Pictures of it? I wanna see it! Please? You must tell me how it goes when you give it to him (Her?).

[gayleggg]

I'm so proud she liked it. I didn't she how she couldn't. It was a really wonderful and creative book. Volunteering can also have some really uplifting qualities. That was a good idea she had.

[ShrinkPatient]

Originally Posted by Daeva

Thanks guys!

Shrink--your T is going to ADORE that! Pictures of it? I wanna see it! Please? You must tell me how it goes when you give it to him (Her?).

It sounds like our mothers had something in common.

I will post a picture of the painting when I get it. This little lady who's painting it, is a really good artist and already selling her work and she's barely 18.

I'm sure I will be sharing how it goes regardless if it's positive or more negative. If it's positive, I'll be gushing like you. (I can literally feel the smile on your face through the words you've written.) if it's negative, I'll need support and advice.

[Daeva]

Yes, thats what she said, She doesn't want me to be by myself with my thoughts on a holiday so I'm glad she's going out of her way

[Daeva]

Shrink--I'm sure it'll be positive, and if it is negative I'm always here, you can PM me, and I'll be keeping my eyes out for your post! I like you alot. And omg I didn't know my words conveyed how i was feeling but yes I am gushing. I love my T. I just want to keep her

[Yogix]

WOW! That sounds like SUCH a fantastic session. I'm so glad to had that Daeva! That's so amazing and I can tell you're really in such great spirits!! So happy for you :-)

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[ShrinkPatient]

Originally Posted by Daeva

Shrink--I'm sure it'll be positive, and if it is negative I'm always here, you can PM me, and I'll be keeping my eyes out for your post! I like you alot. And omg I didn't know my words conveyed how i was feeling but yes I am gushing. I love my T. I just want to keep her

Thank You Daeva. The feeling is mutual. I adore my T too. I'm blessed and I want to keep her too. If I'm half the T she is, I'll be alright!

[Daeva]

Me as well! A few of us at PC should all open an office together!

[Daeva]

Thanks Yogi!!!!!

[Jordy]

I'm so happy for you! I've decided not to give my T a gift for the holidays as I don't think it would be a good idea right now. But I probably will in late sping/early summer for the birth of her foal. If it only goes half as good as it did for you today I'll be happy.

[Daeva]

I hope she loves your gift, I'm sure she will! Thank you so much!

*happy dance*

[Ambra]

Wow, thank you for sharing.. I'm glad it went so well!

You know, I finished my drawing for T too and I thought it was nice, but the more I look at it, the uglier it looks to me and now I'm pretty sure I won't give it to her because I really really dread rejection or that she tears it up. I've never given anyone a drawing. When I was 4 I made one for my favourite teacher and she tore it up.

I really LOVED your thread anyway, it makes me think what would happen if I hadn't decided to leave it in my drawer. Thanks

[archipelago]

Holy Cow! I couldn't have imagined it any better. You deserve it too. That was your gift.

[Daeva]

Thanks guys!

Ambra--It's your T, I know the feeling of rejection I had it this whole week about my drawing, so I understand perfectly. I think it could be therapeutic for you to give it to your T, they won't rip it up! I hope some day you are to the point where you can. -snuggle-

[purplemystery]

Aww what a great session!! It's clear she cares a lot about you, and I'm glad she liked the book so much. I'll bet when she sees it years from now, she'll remember how big of an impact she had on someone in her career.

[Daeva]

I hope so she is a REALLY good T. Very awesome! And she's starting to show that she cares even more now. And it really makes me glad, even though she keeps telling me she can't breed dependence she seems to understand it won't.

[purplemystery]

That's so awesome! I actually had a similar experience with my T, in that she seemed more willing to show that she cared the more I got to know her. Before, she was a lot more like a neutral "blank slate." I'm glad it's going well! I'm guessing you won't be able to see her during winter break? If so, that sounds like a good way to end the semester.

[someone321]

Wow! It was awesome! I enjoyed reading your post so much that I still cannot stop smiling it was do positive (and you are a very good writer btw)... You really made my day, in Europe is already 11:25pm so there is a pretty high chance that I will fall asleep with a big smile on my face Thanks a lot for sharing that...

[Daeva]

Originally Posted by purplemystery

That's so awesome! I actually had a similar experience with my T, in that she seemed more willing to show that she cared the more I got to know her. Before, she was a lot more like a neutral "blank slate." I'm glad it's going well! I'm guessing you won't be able to see her during winter break? If so, that sounds like a good way to end the semester.

Thanks! Yes that seems to be happening to me, we've known each other for ten months but since I've been inquiring more about her she seems more comfortable with me.

Nope! My T has graciously offered me sessions over break! It floored me when she asked.

And Someone--I'm glad it's made you so happy

[Wren_]

it sounds like it went much much better than you could have expected AND you gave her the gift and she liked it and, and, and glad it went so well