[ahdm]

I've written a letter to my T disclosing some of the things she's asked and not asked me about, in an attempt to make therapy a bit easier in regards to opening up and talking, and hopefully to help her understand.

Now I'm freaking out.
This happens all the time - I'll write something down for my T to read, and then last minute I'll back out and I won't give it to her in the session.
I start thinking things like:

• What is she hates me?
• What if she treats me differently?
• What is she laughs?
• What if she passes it off as nothing?
• What if she suggests another therapist?
• What if she....etc

I really need some help and guidance on this - could somebody please help me?

[Hoppery]

Hi there! You are not alone. I too do this. Drives me demented. I wonder why we like to torture ourselves, thinking all sorts of negative things that they could be thinking.

What I do is keep myself super busy, so I don't have time to think. I also, listen to music and watch TV or a DVD. These things won't take the worry away, not all of it. But at least, if we are busy, we cannot think much about it.

[Rzay4]

I've done this in the past too. The best thing is to talk to your T about. You might discover the opposite is the case. For example with my first T I constantly thought I was a burden and that she was always mad me. Since my parents and older sister were constantly yelling or putting me in time outs as a child. My T reassured me and told me nothing would stop her for caring and wanting but the best for me.