Hi All,

I’m not sure if this is a normal part of ‘the process’ – I hate that phrase by the way.

For the first time, I don’t want to go to therapy next week. I had a few really rough sessions that left me wiped, and the whole thing seems… just too much. I don’t want to talk about anything, I don’t want to see T, I don’t want to do anything except just live my life in the real world. I don’t want to talk about myself, indulge in simulated caring receipt, get rocked by processing things between sessions, do homework, and the list goes on. I don’t feel any degree of transference for T anymore – now it’s more or less ambivalence, like T is another regular person in my life that I have to be accountable to once a week. It’s strangely liberating. I feel like I should just quit while I’m ahead J

Anyway, I have no intention of quitting, but anyone ever go through a period like this? Did transference ever kick up again? I feel like I have enough negative associations with T that transference might have been broken, and the obsession with therapy dissipated. Wishful thinking?

[HazelGirl]

Yes, I think it's normal. I had several months where we had a "lull" in treatment. It was a nice break from the difficult work we were doing. Maybe your mind needs a break?

[Perna]

Sounds like your few really rough sessions left you wiped I had that happen more than a few times in the "process" It all ebbs and flows, depending on our own energy, etc. just like our own energy does. I still remember the times, fondly, when I'd get home and almost fall asleep in my dinner (we're talking 6:00-7:00 in the evening) I was so wiped from a session and I just couldn't understand what had made me so tired. Do you work with your dreams? They may kick up to help now that you feel as you do at the moment.

I think like others have said it is part of the process. At the start I couldn't live without therapy and now I don't want to go, I want to live my life instead of talking about it!
Do you feel this is a positive step towards your recovery? Feelings and emotions are ever evolving and they never stay static so what we feel today might not be relevant next week. I think it shows growth and self awareness, well done on your hard work

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